Monthly Archives: August 2015

I am Broken, But not Forgotten!

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I am Broken,

But not Forgotten!

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I am broken!  I have a broken body, though not obvious to the critical and naked eye, that is encased within the remnants of this cold, broken, diseased body that is decaying away.  I have a broken and tarnished mind that oftentimes backfires, leaving me unconscious, while melting down without any forewarning.  I have a broken and bleeding heart, so raw from all the constant jeers and tattered affliction, I have no idea how much longer it will sustain itself.  I have a broken life that supports nothing but a hot mess and chaos that easily destroys everyone in its path, similar to the power coming from an F5 tornado.  I have broken relationships so shattered, they’re forcing my early demise due to the torturing and exhausting attempts at reconciliation.  I am broken!!!

Mirror, Mirror on the Wall,

How do I again Enthrall?

Once so Lovely and Often told Bubbly,

Where were you during the Fall?

The image of the reflection before you haunts and tortures your exhausted mind as you take yet another closeup look at what life and brokenness has done to the innocent girl Blameless Mirror Frightlooking back at you.  Right before the weakened heart’s palpitations drop you to the floor, this broken girl hears a gentle voice of loving reassurance proclaiming, “I Am Who I Am” (Exodus 3:14)!  I have promised you restoration so never forget that “God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.  Does he speak and then not act?  Does he promise and not fulfill” (Numbers 23:19). “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full” (John 10:10).  Wow, what Great Love is that?

God lovingly reassures me to not give up by saying, “Have I not promised you restoration to all things your obedience cost you?  Get up, Beautiful Beloved of mine, and walk by faith towards that restoration that you have been trusting and clinging to each and every day of your difficult journey!  Welcome to the Promised Land.  You almost gave up, but when you heard my voice remind you, `…Though it linger (tarry), wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay’ (Habakkuk 2:3), you held on.”

My heart ponders…

If I am indeed a Beautiful Beloved of the

Kingdom of God,

and I survived what I thought would kill me, doesn’t that mean I should put my crown back on, stand tall, and move forward with the confidence that exudes a

Queen?

Hmmm…  Hello…  If that doesn’t swell up your head enough causing you to move (pull and drift) upwards and forward, then I doubt anything would ♥♥).

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Restoration!!!

Life is hard, and right now my life is brutally hard and challenging between the plundering from another life-and-death battleground and the unique balance to support the spiritual, emotional, financial and physical needs of others!  How do we hang on and not get buried alive, you know, through the enemy’s flaming arrows, the emotional darts, and the affliction that the enemy relentlessly extends while feeling loved by God?

I know life’s brutally hard.  With any battleground we face, when it comes to your own child, this one is hard to let go of the control element.  I know this one all too well because my own baby boy (adult son) is battling the disabling and debilitating and demeaning disease of epilepsy as a grown man with a family of his own to raise and support.  This mama’s heart is so broken and scared and so filled with fear and grief of the unknown, this one could take me down.  Cancer won’t and didn’t along with the worst of the violations that life could throw at one person; but the life of a son, or the torture thereof, has me having to live out my faith while trusting on the One who is loving, caring, and is the author and perfecter of my son’s life.  I am clinging to all of Jeremiah 33; the book of God’s promises of restoration. 

I know many of us mamas and grandmas out there are raising or living a life constantly on our knees for our children due to salvation, bad decisions, disease, delinquency, drugs, you name it, or even the Prodigal Son Syndrome (that’s me ).  This mama knows what it’s like to feel inadequate; that you messed up in some way, and that everything that is remotely wrong or challenging in your children’s life is your fault.  I do not care how old they get!  But you know what, as hard as it is for me to fully believe and hang onto the Lord at times (being honest here ), I am hanging on to Psalm 112:7-8 and Psalm 126 because my heart is secure and steadfast on the Lord, having no fear of bad news (yeah, right ) and I know the tears I have sowed as I go out weeping will return with songs of joy.

Want even more encouraging and sustaining news, read about the amazing story of Lazarus found in John 11.  This is perfect for all of us who believe God is taking too long to heal or doesn’t care.  This mama is clinging to John 11:4 which says, “…Jesus said, This sickness will not end in death.  No, it is for God’s glory so that God’s Son may be glorified through it.”  ♥♥♥

Blameless Matthew 5.16 1 Life can be crippling and fear paralyzing, and some things in life happen that we will never understand this side of heaven; but because of our great faith in the Love that surpasses all knowledge (Ephesians 3:19 and Philippians 4:7), we are able to combat and hang onto the Lord while pressing towards the victory that we know belongs to us; or my son in this case, his precious family, and my precious granddaughter, Princess Ella, the heir to the Ingram throne!  And since she has her Grammy Tammy’s sass and spunk, she needs to know and understand the miracles that God can perform and how His love manifests itself throughout life and others!  God’s love surpasses all knowledge.

A lot of us are grieving and walking through hard, even torturing, losses right now.  Having faith and trust in God not only strengthens and sustains us during our losses and tragedies, but His Love enables us to live the life that He designed; living lives that are peaceful and self-controlled; not freaking out through stress, exhaustion, violence, venting our frustrations and anger onto others, or picking up other vices to calm our scared and hurting hearts.  That’s called Love, the “glue” found in 1 John 4:7-21.

Until next time…

Thank you for being Beautiful You!

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Community of Love ~ Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

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♥♥ Community of Love ♥♥

Hello Beautiful!  I pray you’re having a great week so far!  It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!!!  This weekly challenge is one filled Blameless Matthew 5.16 1with Love, Action and Truth!  Let’s be the lost treasures that are found in our communities by being the rare gems that sparkle and radiate being the Beautiful Beloveds God designed us to be while remembering our inheritance and responsibility in the kingdom of God that Matthew 5:16 reminds us of.

Words, whether few or absent, are powerful!  They say a lot.  Make them matter!  Let’s become a Community of Love this week by acknowledging our responsibilities and by leaving refreshing droplets of our presence, our radiance, through the sprinkling of a little more love this week accomplished through our words and deeds, which will require truth and action.  Our communities will be gratefully blessed and unity can be initiated!

Being the Beautiful Beloveds we are sometimes is no easy feat, but when we take a moment off of ourselves and our own personal struggles and pour out into others, we embrace the definition of God’s love.  What an understatement of the benefits found in the releasing of the floodgates of the storehouse of Love; that outpouring can and will heal many lives!  That’s the definition of a Community of Love!

God’s Love ~ Not Ours

How do we become a Community of Love?  1 John 4:16 reminds us “…God is love.  Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in them.”  Love is and can be messy; look what it cost God (John 3:16).  Forgiveness is essential and the humble reflection of the part you played.  Being Beautiful You should be easy when we don’t have an image to project, nor any expectations!  Love more; tomorrow may never come, and this love produces selfless, sacrificial giving!

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We need to get back to what 1 John 4:11 reminds us, “Dear friends, since God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.”  So many of my dear friends are going through great trials and tragedies, and coming from a beloved who is in the midst herself, Love triumphs all and carries us somehow through.  The support and encouragement from others overrides any pain afflicting us allowing us to Love others as we ourselves conquer!  That’s God’s love.  Real love is not a feeling, it is an action, shared and displayed through the actions of sacrificial, selfless giving!

 Being the hands and feet of God requires being a Community of Love!!!

Let’s love a little more this week…

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

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Call for Action: Let’s be the Hands and Feet of God serving our Firefighters! Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

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In Honor of the Firefighters we lost: Michael Hallenbeck and David Ruhl

Call for Action:  Let’s be the Hands of God serving our Local Firefighters!

Hello Beautiful!  I pray you’re having a great week so far!  It’s that time Tammy Fire 4again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!!!  This weekly challenge is one filled with compassion while pouring out blessings and much-needed prayers into our own communities!  With the serious and out- of-control wildfires burning here in California, we have tragically lost a couple of firefighters while battling this demon.  All firefighters are maxed right now due to not only the grief from losing a fellow firefighter, but they’re being sent to other areas to fight those fires while leaving their own families.  Not to mention, they’re working longer shifts exhausted just to accommodate for the slimmer crews in order to make up for the overwhelming demands.  ♥♥ 

This week’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays challenge is to go out into our community and shout out a great big “Thank You” to all of the local firefighters who are also our First Responders.  Let’s get out and visit our local fire departments and deliver them lots of goodies, along with hugs, introductions, praises of recognition, cards, and words of encouragement.  They really do care who resides within their district.  Station No. 6 received me with such open arms and attentiveness, I was saddened because I would have loved to have had theBlameless Hands of God 4.4 time to reciprocate back at them while delivering them pizza for dinner!  Next time!!!

♥♥  Since we all need to be appreciated, loved on and poured into; when we share and pour out love into the members of our communities, favor and blessings abound in such a dynamic way.  What a great opportunity to bring them dinner “Just because…”  ♥♥ 

Grab your girlfriends, yours kids, your grandbabies, and especially your church body and share the love of gratitude for all they do while being the hands and feet of God!  What a great way to model and witness to our kids by giving back and having fun by baking up some goodies, ordering pizza or buying In ‘n Out Burgers or even buying some items at the grocery store and delivering those tokens of love with a smile radiating that Beautiful You!

Tammy Fire 3We must not forget, these brave men and women put their lives on the line each and every day and commit themselves to giving back to their own communities. They are so much more than eye candy in uniform; they have families whom they leave for extended periods of time knowing their lives could be put in danger; they’re also much more active than just fighting occasional fires. They are unsung heroes who are generally always the first to arrive Firemen-with-Peds-Pt-300x225at every emergency scene to assess the patient and situational emergence.  They provide all medical care, whether it’s spinal and/or bone mobilization, perform CPR or administer external defibrillator treatment, and they even administer the life-saving epinephrine.  If extricating human life, fighting fires and locating patients left behind wasn’t brave enough, they are also subjected to unknown and unsafe environmental conditions that oftentimes compromise their health for life! 

I think our firefighters are far more deservant of praise and recognition than most even think about.  I am honored and blessed to know a few of them Blameless Firemenpersonally and I want them to know just how grateful we are for their service!  Let’s show our local firehouses how we can honor each other while we’re still alive through love and service.  It takes a community to bring back the unity and being the hands and feet of God is not only rewarding, but it’s sprinkling love and light to a world that really needs to see it!  Plus, you’ll make a new friend or two; it’s a win/win situation no matter how you look at it!

Since we have lost a couple of firefighters of our own here this past week firemen tragedydue to all these wildfires burning in California, this week’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays is dedicated to our fallen heroes, firefighters Michael Hallenbeck and David Ruhl, who died while bravely battling the wildfires and losing their lives doing what they loved most.  Let’s keep their family, friends, and fellow firefighters in our thoughts and prayers!  Let’s love, respect and honor those while we can!  ♥♥♥

 

♥♥ In Loving Memory of Firefighters ♥♥

Michael Hallenbeck and David Ruhl

†† May you rest in Peace! ††

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Not Again! Everything Hinges on Today!

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Not Again!

Everything Hinges on Today!

You know those mornings, the aftermath of the war.  You stand there startled, short of breath, as you boldly survey the carnage left over from the enemy’s constant plundering.  Remnants from another battleground has left you just as scarred and naked as when your weary, decaying body collapsed into the cool comforts of satin just hours before.  You toss and battle all night long with one eye on the ticking clock and the other on the enemy’s next move.  You’re now prepared to combat every flaming arrow, emotional dart and affliction that the enemy extends with your armor of protection and your sharpened sword; this is life, the new norm.  Change!

You’ve become numb; you’re not worried about the outcome, both require either change and/or adaption.  You’re exhausted from all the physical pain caused from being a surgeon’s fantasy, you know, remove this, remove that; insert this, insert that!  The long recoveries, the staples, the scars, the lack of essential organs; and the growing weakness that every surgery brings about; spiritually, emotionally, and physically.  Your life is full of change, relentless pain, and restrictions.  You’re used to this; you’re only getting older!  No one understands.  Most would never believe it if you told them.  You yearn for what everyone else has;  freedom to be me, pain-free!  Yet you’re isolated from the normalcy that most take for granted, and every step hurts like hell!

Blameless Ballet InnocenseYou look into the mirror and even though your heart and mind tells you you’re still as beautiful and vibrant as the crown you once wore, the image you see tells another story.  Traumatized, you pull the skin from around your eyes and cheeks and press hard while stretching it towards your ears and breathe a sigh of relief as you receive the affirmation that the fantasy portrays, while choosing to believe and hide under the weight of what was.  Then reality hits and rears its ugly head with a loud roar.  Everything hinges on today!

With your alarm blaring, you bury your head underneath the pillow trying to drown out the piercing screams coming from such a miniscule item.  If only we had such a powerful voice!  You’re exhausted, you’re scared, you’re trying to survive in this alien form of decay this side of heaven.  Heaven?  You’re wondering how in the world you got here to begin with, much less AGAIN!  You’re not ready for today; no one is.  Someone make that torturing and boisterous noise stop!  Everything hinges on today! 

As you roll over to silent that relentless and torturing alarm, you smack the glass of water that was sitting on your nightstand flinging it against the wall.  In response, the water starts trickling down into your clothes drawer.  As it starts rushing towards to wipe out your Bible, your moment of fight-and-flight adrenaline enables you to jump out of bed in haste to stop the water from damaging your road map, your life, your love, your Bible.  In accomplishment, you slam your shin on the new exposed steel end caps of the bed that protrudes beyond its borders and scream loud obscenities not worthy of imagination.  (Trust me, my mouth could have competed, and proudly taken the prize, from any sailor’s foul mouth; just sayin’… )

Hobbling to the kitchen with tears streaming down your face to turn on the morning liquid courage (coffee ) just like every other day, the realization that coffee wasn’t made the night before due to the lack of tricklin’ brew, a tantrum brews anew.  To add insult to injury, the irritable thrust of attitude and pathetic demeanor in opening the coffee results in a confetti blessing of Mt. Starbucks all over the counter-top.  Time may be of the essence today, but because of the DELIRIUM, you flip your long hair back like an old Charlie’s Angels icon and smack your forehead against the granite ledge knocking you completely on your assets with your teeth snapping down on your tongue like an alligator devouring its prey!!!

Go ahead, laugh!  I will nearly pee my pants with joyful humiliation every time I revisit this horrible encounter for years to come; but laughter is the best medicine, right, especially when laughing at one’s self.  It was as dramatic as it sounds, resulting in the makeup that every woman runs from, a black eye!  So much for the audition on Charlie’s Angels! 🙂

As you fall to the ground in literal tears and in pain, reality sets in as you realize you’re not allowed to have coffee or water because today IS DOOMSDAY, the day of another surgery!  Today is the day that starts yet another new journey filled with unknowns and a whole lot of pain, both old and new.  You reflect as you lay on that cold tile floor sobbing like a tantrum-throwing two-year-old regurgitating the blood coming from the lock-down caused by your own beautiful teeth.

As you glance over through the cloudy pool of tears, your heart focuses on a picture of your kids and granddaughter smiling right back at you.  God really has sustained you with grandeur blessings!  You then wonder why you can’t be like that innocent child who runs a high fever, doesn’t sleep, has Philippians 4:13a nose filled with liquid congestion and the constant drippings, along with a cough that burns and seems to have Energizer bunny batteries; yet when she wakes up, she is smiling, eager and excited for the day ahead.  She doesn’t know what is going to happen, she embraces the good along with the bad; all she thinks about is how it’s a new day and she trusts the One Who Loves her.  She’s ready to experience all that life has to offer her that day and the beauty it holds moment by moment with the biggest smile, contagious excitement and total gratitude!  That is the meaning of “I can do everything through Him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13). 

With everything hinging on today, the heart remembers…

“She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come…Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised…” Proverbs 31:25-30 (NIV). 

Today’s surgery might bring about additional long-standing pain, Chronic is his name, due to the physical, emotional and even spiritual losses; but let’s celebrate victory even before we have received the prize with love while engaging in the dance with one another through joy, laughter, tears and support in order to claim the victory that will “…let them praise His name with dancing” (Psalm 149:3).

Until next time…

Thank you for being Beautiful You!

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Being the Hands of God Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

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Being the Hands of God!

Hello beautiful!  I pray you’re having a great week so far.  It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!!!  I don’t know about you, but I believe we all need someone who will reach out and help strengthen us as we sojourn through this life; whether it’s given through a sprinkling of love from a simple smile, a hug, a tender touch, precious time, or that much-needed encouragement. 

Have you ever wondered what being the hands and feet of God is like?  I admittedly never thought much of the impact until a girlfriend shared this beautiful song with me called “Being the Hands of God” by Francesca Battistelli.  It is amazing the blessings that loving others the way God asks us to signifies.  It just resonated so deeply within my heart the significance and import that simple and random acts of kindness offer through healing Blameless Hands of God 6and is a key to unlocking the doors of heaven here on earth while bringing unity back into our churches and communities. 

We all need to love and be loved; so simple, yet somehow or another we’ve lost this delicate art!  War and division seem so much easier than to just love others.  This song illustrates beautifully the importance in being the hands and feet of God (1 Corinthians 12:14-24 and Romans 12:4-8) and is exactly what the body of Christ was designed and meant to do; reaching out and pouring love into others; therefore, revealing who Jesus Christ is.  “Every time you reach out, I can feel His love so near.  I hope you know to me you are the hands of God.”  This amazing song with lyrics can be listened here: 

Blameless Hands of God 2.2Just knowing that reaching out and loving on another Beautiful Beloved through simple encouragement and an easy gesture was considered being the hands of God, it just inspires me to continue sharing and pouring out the love of Christ.  We are all in this together, and we need each other to weather the storms in life, and it takes just a few minutes to tell someone you love them and appreciate them; offering a shoulder to cry on; the touch of a hand; a card saying “I love you and appreciate you”; a simple token of “I’m sorry, please forgive me”; flowers “Just because”; these random acts of love and thoughtfulness radiate the sunshine and growth that keeps us blossoming into the Beautiful Beloveds God designed and created us to be. 

Blameless Hands of God 4.4No matter how hard our own lives are, blessing others with simple deposits of love not only sprinkle blessings and affirmation onto the recipient, it creates an atmosphere that takes our minds off of self and pity and unites and knits together woven strands of love that are so strong, they can break down the walls of division and spread the love of Jesus that only the transforming power can accomplish and conquer.  We are here to encourage one another through love.  All lives are messy and need help from time to time; and when we reach out, pull up and share our lives with another through love and service, we are being the hands and feet of God.

Weekly Challenge:  Since Jesus reaches down to us and meets us where we are so He can heal our bleeding hearts, let’s start emulating His life by using His power that exists in our own hands.  I don’t know about Blameless Hands of God 5.5you, but I want to utilize the hands of God that extends to everyone I cross paths with, whether I know them or not, and leave a deposit of love on their life!

Let’s take the time this week to reflect on the fact that we have the privilege in being loved and to love, along with the privilege of time right here and right NOW!!!  With that understanding, this will usher in the time to be friendly!  Say hi, smile, make eye contact, pray over, hand a flower to, open the door for someone and radiate that Beautiful You without hastily rushing by others without much thought or concern.  This is such a simple start in unleashing the power in being the hands of God!  Together we can make a difference!  With no guarantees of tomorrow, never forget:

Thank you for being Beautiful You!

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