Monthly Archives: January 2018

A Girl Becomes A Woman…

A Girl Becomes A Woman When She Learns To Love HERSELF More Than She Loves A Man!

Words filled with hate and torturing venom penetrate into the girl’s heart and soul. The beautiful beloved gasps for air as she digests and searches for comfort between her regurgitated fears and her tear-stained cheeks flaming with humiliation.

She ponders her worth and self-esteem after every assault and affair. “I’m not enough! I don’t belong here. I’m a failure. Why won’t he love me?”

I picked up and allowed bad behaviors to infect and direct my life while learning coping mechanisms that provided nothing besides locking myself up in my own self-constructed cell of hell. I employed protection from the hard hats; construction crews of fear. This crew of fear built barriers around my heart that further wrapped me in emotional isolation and insecurities.

My choices reflected my fears, not my hopes!

That was before I knew God…

I never understood self-love and what self-compassion entailed. I lived out learned behaviors that dictated even if both of my legs were broken (or back), I kept going. No healing going on here…

Fake it until you make it, baby!

Blameless Woman Who Walks With The Lord 2

Confidence is Silent. Insecurities are Loud!

The enemy uses whatever weakness and temptation he can to derail us. When insecurities are loud, we become easily depressed and discouraged. Talk about distraction at its finest.

We even desire to live out Nelson Mandela’s wisdom, “May your choices reflect your hopes, not your fears.”

But how do we live that out?

Sadly, a majority of my choices in the past reflected my fears and not my hopes. Had I only known that in order to be a woman, I had to learn to love myself first. And that required knowing who God said I was.

God teaches us magnificently who we are and how to love a man; and others, for that matter.

Blameless Dressed In Confidence

God’s Beautiful Beloveds dress themselves in confidence every day. They refuse to wear another’s insecurities!

I grow weary of wearing other people’s insecurities. Don’t you?

Their insecurities don’t fit. They’re either too restrictive, too heavy, expose way too much or uncomfortable! They itch, they inflame, and they inject pain in each layer. Plus talk about heavy baggage!

Time to dress myself in confidence instead. Confidence fits. It’s lighter. Confidence compliments and enhances our beauty!

What a concept!

Hello…

I love confidence… the way it feels… the comfort… the ease… and how it radiates and enhances who I am! It makes me feel…

B-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l!

“A girl becomes a woman when she learns to love herself more than she loves a man” does not mean that we teach our daughters and granddaughters to be selfish Brides of Frankenstein. 

Or wait…

Isn’t that called a Bridezilla?

Blameless Mirror Fright

I’ll say it, sometimes the reflection scares the ugly right out of me…

God Is Our First Love!

If we learn to put the Lord first, we will be able to love ourselves and others. We will learn how to set boundaries through communication and confidence. We won’t be easily angered. We will be patient and kind. Not rude. We will keep no record of wrongs…

Hello…

Do I hear forgiving?

We will also know to run to our Papa God when our love tanks are low in order to get fueled up.

You know, when PMS strikes or those hot flashes are no match for those crocodile tears and manic ricocheting daggers because of our lack of hormones and escalated emotional needs!!!

Run…

Quick!!!

Embracing Jesus to fill up our love tanks, He reminds us of our worth and value. Then we’re able to love others and not be needy beloveds.

There’s nothing more frightening than a needy beloved!

Before Christ, I ran after unhealthy relationships. I was so busy allowing people to assault and abuse me, being controlled by their dangling of performance-based love and manipulation, I became an angry doormat instead of a confident beloved.

There was never any time or ROOM for healthy relationships. I was too busy covering up and sweeping other people’s junk underneath the rug instead of exposing it and walking away, while hiding underneath my veil of shame.

When you don’t know what real love is like, you become desperate for any sort of attention and affection, negative or otherwise! Love isn’t supposed to hurt! But… loving a girl who hasn’t learned to love herself first is one of the hardest things to do!

Blameless Bride Loves Herself

Human love is considered an intimate affair. Beautifully so. Song of Songs 8:6-7 relates love as strong as death and jealousy (passion) as intense as the grave.

Song of Songs 8:6-7 (NIV)

6 Place me like a seal over your heart,
like a seal on your arm;
for love is as strong as death,
its jealousy unyielding as the grave.
It burns like blazing fire,
like a mighty flame.
7 Many waters cannot quench love;
rivers cannot sweep it away.
If one were to give
all the wealth of one’s house for love,
it would be utterly scorned.

Being God’s treasured daughter affords self-love and self-compassion. Us girls need to learn to love ourselves first before we can possibly love another man. In order to love ourselves, we need to experience daily the love of our Father and that requires engaging in a relationship with Him. What a beautiful endearment!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

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Homelessness… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Blameless Homeless 3

Homelessness…

Has The Milk Of Human Kindness Dried Up?

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Hi Beautiful! I pray you were able to tap into our amazing God of Encouragement and Endurance this past week while stamping other beloveds “approved” with joy. It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays.

As I write this weekly challenge, my heart is heavily burdened. This is the result of another “be-careful-what-you-pray-for” as tears pour down my face hearing the testimonies of many homeless beloveds from this past weekend.

You see, I asked the Lord to give me His eyes to see what He sees and His ears to hear what only He knows. God’s answer:

“The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing!” ~ Albert Einstein

Homelessness is real and more predominant than most people care or even dare to acknowledge.

Jesus’ words in John 3:17 are fixed to my heart, “If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need, but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?

Blameless Hugging Says You Matter

Homelessness accompanies hopelessness that only Love can heal!

I’ve recently become honored to be a part of an amazing team that ministers every week to providing the homeless love through nutritious meals, rain or shine.  Food is the vessel that draws the homeless beloveds in while providing nourishment for the heart, soul, body and mind.

Providing Hope For Our Homeless

We’re talking hundreds of homeless individuals receive hope, love, fellowship, HUGS and nourishment from amazing selfless beloveds that speak life and love into others and whom I’m honored to call my friends and team. This blessed nonprofit in Roseville, California, is called Blameless and Forever Free Ministries.

I have met, served and continue to be blessed by the homeless population. Yes, you read that right, the homeless continue to bless me! When I look them in their eyes, I see a reflection of who lives inside of me; Love Himself, Jesus Christ!

I can relate with many of these precious loved ones and their stories. I was a single mom working two jobs and know full well what it’s like to be a paycheck away from being homeless. Frightening! And fear paralyzes us to move forward. I understand their pain and their sense of loss and desperation. Talk about a shame-filled life without any hope.

Blameless Homeless 2

Unconditional Love

There’s more love depicted in this photograph than sadly the supply of milk. These pets offer more love and comfort than one could illustrate. Without them, the emotional distress would be unconscionable.

There’s a reason many homeless beloveds have animals; it’s called unconditional love. It’s a source of stability and comfort that helps them facilitate hope. Plus the animals provide a source of heat. Do you know what it feels like to live in freezing conditions? It’s a silent killer.

This photograph illustrates the best of conditions in homeless suburbia. If I showed you skid row where they’re all lined up on the cold, dark cement sidewalks of Sacramento, hundreds with very few tents, huddled together for warmth and protection from the elements, it would, or should, break your heart!

A simple token of kindness can make a huge difference. We can do this by acknowledging the need of the homeless by donating time, blankets, socks, money, food, you name it.

What a blessing and honor to witness how a simple gesture of human kindness and love can heal wounds that otherwise would bleed out.

As Mother Teresa said, “If you cannot feed a hundred people, then feed just one.”

Blameless Homeless Plate For One 2.2

Weekly Challenge: I understand most of us can’t afford to feed a hundred people, but we can pitch in and help one homeless person. This weekly challenge is to donate time or monetary resources, preferably both , to local Christian nonprofit organizations like Blameless and Forever Free Ministries.  Blankets and socks are golden treasures right now.

Nonprofit organizations cater to more than just the physical needs of the homeless. They operate under the authority of the powerful words that offer healing that Jesus declared in John 6:35, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”

Blameless Beautiful When We Come Together

“The best Vitamin for a Christian is to B-1!”

Together we’re beautiful and withdrawing or acting blind to others’ needs will not help solve any problem. I pray the Lord will open our eyes and hearts to the many beloveds who are homeless. After all, “the best vitamin for a Christian is to B-1.” Do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased (Hebrews 13:16).

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Homelessness… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Blameless Homeless 3

Homelessness…

Has The Milk Of Human Kindness Dried Up?

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Hi Beautiful! I pray you were able to tap into our amazing God of Encouragement and Endurance this past week while stamping other beloveds “approved” with joy. It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays.

As I write this weekly challenge, my heart is heavily burdened. This is the result of another “be-careful-what-you-pray-for” as tears pour down my face hearing the testimonies of many homeless beloveds from this past weekend.

You see, I asked the Lord to give me His eyes to see what He sees and His ears to hear what only He knows. God’s answer:

“The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil, but because of those who look on and do nothing!” ~ Albert Einstein

Homelessness is real and more predominant than most people care or even dare to acknowledge.

Jesus’ words in John 3:17 are fixed to my heart, “If anyone has material possessions and sees his brother in need, but has no pity on him, how can the love of God be in him?

Blameless Hugging Says You Matter

Homelessness accompanies hopelessness that only Love can heal!

I’ve become honored to be a part of an amazing team that ministers hope and love to homeless beloveds utilizing nutritious meals as a vessel drawing them in.  This nonprofit organization is called Blameless and Forever Free MinistriesBeing the hands and feet of God offers us the opportunity to provide nourishment for their hearts, souls, bodies and minds.

Providing Hope For Homeless

I have met, served and continue to be blessed by the homeless population. Yes, you read that right, the homeless continue to bless me! When I look them in their eyes, I see a reflection of who lives inside of me; Love Himself, Jesus Christ!

I can relate with many of these precious loved ones and their stories. I was a single mom working two jobs and know full well what it’s like to be a paycheck away from being homeless. Frightening! And fear paralyzes us to move forward. I understand their pain and their sense of loss and desperation. Talk about a shame-filled life without any hope.

Where’s God’s extension of love and human kindness in nursing the homeless?

Blameless Homeless 2

Unconditional Love

There’s more love depicted in this photograph than sadly the supply of milk. These pets offer more love and comfort than one could illustrate. Without them, the emotional distress would be unconscionable.

There’s a reason many homeless beloveds have animals; it’s called unconditional love. It’s a source of stability and comfort that helps them facilitate hope. Plus the animals provide a source of heat. Do you know what it feels like to live in freezing conditions? It’s a silent killer.

This photograph illustrates the best of conditions in homeless suburbia. If I showed you skid row where they’re all lined up on the cold, dark cement sidewalks of Sacramento, hundreds with very few tents, huddled together for warmth and protection from the elements, it would, or should, break your heart!

A simple token of kindness can make a huge difference. We can do this by acknowledging the need of the homeless by donating time, blankets, socks, money, food, you name it.

What a blessing and honor to witness how a simple gesture of human kindness and love can heal wounds that otherwise would bleed out.

As Mother Teresa said, “If you cannot feed a hundred people, then feed just one.”

Blameless Homeless Plate For One 2.2

Weekly Challenge: I understand most of us can’t afford to feed a hundred people, but we can pitch in and help one homeless person. This weekly challenge is to donate time or monetary resources, preferably both , to local Christian nonprofit organizations like Blameless and Forever Free Ministries. Blankets and socks are golden treasures right now.

These organizations cater to more than just the physical needs of the homeless. They operate under the authority of the powerful words that offer healing that Jesus declared in John 6:35, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty.”

Blameless Beautiful When We Come Together

“The best Vitamin for a Christian is to B-1!”

Together we’re beautiful and withdrawing or acting blind to others’ needs will not help solve any problem. I pray the Lord will open your eyes and heart to the many beloveds who are homeless. After all, “the best vitamin for a Christian is to B-1.” Do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased (Hebrews 13:16).

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

To Belittle…

To Belittle Is To

be little!

Should you ever find yourself the victim of another’s bitterness, their smallness, or even their insecurities, remember… things could be worse… you could be them!

Oh my…

No, thank you! I’ve had my fill of the angry birds and abusers for a lifetime.

Today I was reminded of God’s amazing love and His protection in guarding my heart when a family member attacked and belittled me.

Abusers are a part of my DNA. Lord knows I’ve learned from the best! But one thing I have learned and am so grateful for is, Greater is He that lives in me than he that is in the world (1 John 4:4).

The beauty of transformation. Thank you, Jesus!

And I don’t take “my DNA” lightly. The blood that runs through my veins now is kingdom-filled and full of life flowing with God’s Love, not hate and spite of the enemy that comes to kill, steal and destroy!

Am I upset?

It’s time to break through the mold and thank Jesus for His life and freedom in being beautiful beloveds who are dearly loved, imperfect and yet, His magnificent works of art, right?

I want to be free of all these deeply-seated wounds and the broken pieces that are hindering me from my God-given identity and purpose.

How about you?

Blameless Breaking Free

When another belittles or tries to pretend we’re a bad person so they don’t feel guilty about the things they did personally to us or said about us, running from confrontation and any accountability whatsoever, we are most like Christ when we remain silent under attack.

And let me be brutally honest here…

It is sooooo freakin’ stinkin’ hard to remember this when being assaulted. People can be savage!

Belittle may be defined as to “make (someone or something) seem unimportant,” but that’s an understatement. People are cruel. Even family members. This is their way of projecting their insecurities onto others and what they wished they actually were.

So when walking through another’s assault that deems my life as “worthless,” the sole blame for their problems, it is near impossible to be quiet.

Where’s my voice, Lord?

Gag me with peace!

How can my breastplate be shielding my heart when I can still feel pain ricocheting off my shield?

This breastplate of righteousness is what protects and guards our heart which is the very seat of our emotions, you know, our self-worth and trust factor.

Thank God I’ve been touched by my Beautiful Jesus who loves me and I can run to Him for refuge knowing He’ll never forsake me.

When you’ve been completely rejected and abandoned, you need tender coddling and assurance to deal with persecution and courage to walk through life confident and strong.

Sweet friends, the piercing of our hearts requires immediate healing so the pain will not attach and fester into a venomous bitter root. When stuffed down, it will eventually mirror the aggressor’s ugly actions with death rolling from our tongues!

This reiterates why James talks about the tongue being a small but powerful member that destroys everyone and everything in its path (James 3:1-12). Who needs to fear a nuclear war when our mouths are more destructive?

Forgive me for the profanity below, but it speaks to my carnality as it releases toxins from the sting incurred from an embittered person’s assaults.

Blameless Projection Accountability

Just being transparent…

It’s hard to pray for those who hurt us, but loving our enemies and doing good to those who hate us is brutally challenging. Not to mention blessing those who curse us is even harder (Luke 6:27-29).

I’m still a work in progress, but it can be done when we’re filled with God’s Love.

Remembering to be on guard equipped with our shields of faith when assaults come out of nowhere takes practice. We lose our focus easily. Guarding our hearts and minds requires being grounded daily in God’s Word. This helps thwart the attacks from distracting us and subtracting our worth.

Our worth was never theirs to give us in the first place, so they cannot take away what was not theirs to give anyways.

Words hurt. They sting. They rob us and can leave us depleted!

Belittling is flat-out cruel and a form of emotional abuse. The best rebuttal is to love and respond with a blessing. That takes a BIG heart of courage! Any fool can retaliate; just saying…

God wants His Beautiful Beloveds building others up because we know what it’s like to be torn down and ripped to shreds.

So…

“Never let anyone belittle you. Their unkind words are a reflection of their insecurities and what they wish for you to be.” Trust in yourself and believe in who God says you are:

His Masterpiece!

Until next time...

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

 

Sobriety Check… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

Sobriety Check…

Can You Walk A Straight Line?

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Hi Beautiful, I pray you enjoyed last week’s challenge in radiating that beautiful smile of yours while changing the atmosphere everywhere your feet walked.

I know for myself, smiling helped cure a lot of other ailments I was suffering from when others reciprocated my joy.

Thank you for spreading the love of our Lord. It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

I don’t know about you, but 2017 was probably the hardest year I have endured physically, emotionally and spiritually. Even though 2018 promises great blessings with prosperity, I’ve been having a hard time acclimating, keeping my balance. I just cannot seem to scurry up enough strength to walk that straight line without losing my focus.

Failing the sobriety test…

What do we do when we can’t pass a sobriety test?

And here my liquid courage has been nothing but lemonade made from all those lemons. Okay, so there may be a hint of freshly grated ginger root in there, but…

And I thought being drunk on silliness and refraining from being so serious was the answer.

Can you walk a straight line sober?

I sure can’t. I can’t even dance on point anymore. My balance and gait seem to be off. Each time I take a step forward, I seem to get distracted and never make my destination. And there’s really not a whole lot going on.

I wish I looked as cute and remained playful with the tenacity to keep trying to walk the plank until I got it right like this adorable puppy.

I need others to help me stay balanced. Talk about discouraging when we can’t accomplish simple tasks because our past failures keep haunting us. You know those voices, the ones that say you’re not good enough, it’s all your fault, you give up too quickly, nobody cares, what are you smoking, etc.

God of Endurance and God of Encouragement

The great news is that our Beautiful Jesus knows our insecurities and every single one of our shortcomings. And the amazing thing about His Great Love is that He is a God of Endurance and a God of Encouragement. He has stamped us APPROVED!

Blameless Approved Stamp 2

Many beloveds seem to be surrounded by and facing a sea of problems with no relief in sight.

Speaking for myself, without others throwing out a lifeline or two or three, I would have sunk underneath the weight of the trials and tragedies of last year. Good riddance 2017!

Without my amazing support system, the circumstances that once looked treacherous ahead would have drowned me. I was able to face those crashing waves that were once threatening to sink me because God worked miracles through others as they helped sustain and encourage me.

Emulating Paul’s thoughts in Colossians 2:2-3, “My purpose is that they may be encouraged in heart and united in love, so that they may have the full riches of complete understanding, in order that they may know the mystery of God, namely, Christ, in whom are hidden all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.”

The Body of Christ should be encouraging, full of endurance, unified communities that are established and committed to carrying out Christ’s work no matter our differences.

We all fear rejection, so why can’t we throw out and change the rejected stamp to approved only?

Blameless Approved Stamp

Let’s face it, the closer we are to the shepherd, our Beautiful Jesus, the safer we are from the wolves in sheep’s clothing. Let’s leave the wolves howling approved…

Claiming The Brightest Future!

“The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.”

Weekly challenge:  We are beautiful when we come together!!! This week let’s be beloveds who offer words of encouragement and endurance to help others let go of past failures. Let’s stamp each other approved and not rejected by loving one another in thought and deed, especially those whose traditions and ceremonies differ from ours.

Being beloveds who mirror our Beautiful Jesus help others believe their lives are stamped with approval and that their pasts do not define them. Instead, we encourage them to realize they are stronger and more powerful for having walked through, and survived, their pasts. 

More importantly, let’s remind them that it’s going to take some time, maybe even a lifetime, before they can walk a straight line. And it’s okay, because we are already stamped approved.

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Smile, Beautiful…

Smile & The Whole World Will Smile With You…

Frown & You Will Frown Alone!

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

 

Hi Beautiful, Happy New Year! I pray this new year is raining down many affirmations of love reminding you how highly favored and blessed you are. Oh, and can we say, downright gorgeous, too! It’s that time again; it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

Since we’re all in this crazy life together and contributing to the beauty of the world with our own unique colors, cultures and valuable styles, let’s try and embrace this weekly Tammy Tangent Tuesdays challenge with what Proverbs 15:13 reminds us of: “A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.”

So… what’s the worse thing that could happen if we embrace 2018 sharing our natural radiance that the Lord blessed us Beautiful Beloveds with? Our cheeks may hurt from the constant smiling, but what a great way to get an instant lift.

If we think about it, I know of no better way to spread cheer and life to others than to find a smile and by laughing with joy. After all, “our mouths were filled with laughter, our tongues with songs of joy. For the Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy” (Psalm 126:2-3).

It’s time to make peace with that beautiful smile of yours again and work it, girlfriend!

Did you know the more you smile, the better you will feel; and smiling creates an inviting, magnetic and interactive force that will draw others to you while changing the atmosphere?

You will be surprised at how this natural quality of yours attracts blessings to your life, like a magnet, so let’s do it again and again!  It costs nothing and smiles will make even the grumpiest person happy and alive.

Now that you realize how to use your natural and inner beauty while bringing blessings to others just by being Beautiful You, your challenge for the week is to go back out into your community and smile, Beautiful!  Our communities desperately need some cheer right now!

Blameless Baby Smile

Since Proverbs 15:13 reiterates how a happy heart makes the face cheerful, let’s work this most important curve on our bodies. Whether or not you feel cheerful, smile. You’ll feel better in no time, especially when you go outside of your comfort zone and smile at others and the other person reciprocates! It’s a given, it’s contagious!!!

Our smile and joy reveals our inner spirit, so let the world see Jesus illuminating from your smile!

You’re so amazing and beautiful, it’s time to fall in love with and embrace your greatest asset and curve! Don’t believe me, take a look in the mirror and see how you’re transformed when you smile. Simply radiant, darling!  

Let’s get this party started by sharing this throughout social media and sharing the good news with all your friends. Start a domino effect in making people smile.

The world needs to see what the kingdom of God is like through our actions being His hands and feet and SMILE! Together we can change the world through being our beautiful selves! We can and will change the atmosphere with our smiles.

A smile is the most beautiful curve on a woman’s body.  So work it, girlfriend!

Good Morning, Sunshine

Weekly challenge:  Make it a point to smile several times a day (at least 10), especially to those who need to be touched by the love of Jesus as you become His hands and feet (you know, those grumpy looking people or even the homeless; they need love too ♥♥).

You will see how it changes not only how you feel, but you will find others complimenting you on your new vibrant look and your sense of confidence!!! 

Plus, you’re radiating love and joy that will bring about blessings across the world! That is what is called love in action that 1 John 3:18 talks about, being the hands and feet of God! Pay it forward! 

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You! 

smile flower

The Decay Of The Waiting Room…

What’s More Painful,

Dilapidated Conditions or Abominable Banter?

Death and decay reek. The woman draws in closer. She obviously feels her exchange of banter is needed. A breath mint might just grant her!

Between the abominable breath causing imminent death, who needs to worry about dilapidated conditions or suspicions.

Oh, I hear her all right. Mix a Xanax with her cheese, please!

Silence is obviously not a known science…

Oh wait, isn’t this where my fav Achmed comes to the rescue?

After all, grief has a way of screaming

The pearls and pitfalls of the cover girl. The tendency to turn my pain into another’s gain. The sounds that hit the ground take more than grace to run this race with a bitter sister from another mother.

Gotta love us women at times when we turn into more than extra-grace required children.

This beloved means well, but her breath isn’t my only bone. I have chosen to sit in this waiting room alone. I need space for this race, unoccupied by this banter which is nothing but epic ranter.

We’re Never Alone With Jesus

I don’t know about you, but I need peace to see every crease of my soul. That’s why my head is down in my Bible so I won’t dread what’s ahead. I am choosing to feel every single pain; physically, emotionally, financially and spiritually. 

Let me cry, as foreign as that may be. Let me grieve, which is foreign to me. Let me just be!

I’m 51 percent introvert and 49 percent extrovert. Many disagree, but do they really know me? I require space so I don’t disgrace!

Blameless Long Walk of Pain

Try being a chaplain; it’s a long walk to talk…

Have you ever wondered why waiting rooms tend to be colder than ice? And I’m being nice…

Time stands still. Life requires more than a will. Love requires being filled from above.

Waiting rooms contain inevitable frustration and tidal waves of depression.

My new friend goes for the jugular, “So… do you still feel God loves you? All that time you spend reading your Bible, what good is it now?”

Love from above…

Pause… one, two, three, four… before reacting. My cast-iron horns were fully emerged and the flaming arrows were deployed to surge.

Space occupied by the enemy who comes solely to kill, steal and destroy has no place here. Then again, maybe her breath mirrors the death inside my own heart.

The lies of the enemy penetrate my heart, but my shield fends off the affliction. I’m left feeling naked instead. My soul will be exposed if I don’t stay controlled and posed.

So my venom leads me down to the ER room, emergency relief room, to pray.

Smiley – Wonderful

My mind ventures back and hangs onto what the amazing Ann Voskamp spoke earlier to my heart:

Is Jesus merely useful to you — or is He ultimately beautiful to you?

When Jesus is useful to me, I’m looking for a genie in a bottle, to give me the life I want.

When Jesus is beautiful to me, I’m looking for His face in my life, to give Him the love I feel.

When Jesus is merely useful to me, I want Him to move my world.

So herein lies my convicted heart. That’s the beauty of the cross, there’s no shame in our game, judgment or condemnation. Instead, there is love and conviction in this affliction.

This consoles my soul because I know the decay in this hallway needs removed today. I choose to see my beautiful Lord’s face in my space.

My heart remembers Lamentations 3:22-26:

22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.

25 The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the Lord.

No wonder the Lord tells us to be ready in and out of season because this season of frying my heart crisp burns through all the lying. The enemy may be able to burn our tender hearts, but he won’t take us down with his assaulting darts.

World War III is fully equipped with grace and that’s key.

Waiting rooms are hard and filled with refinement opportunities; whether it’s medical, financial, legal or relational. When conditions look dilapidated and our lives and hearts become castrated due to these afflictions, it helps to remember the words of John Wesley:

One of the greatest evidences of God’s love to those that love him is, to send them afflictions, with grace to bear them.

My heart and faith is constantly tested during such periods in being weak and scared. The one thing I cleave to is that God loves me enough to take note of every tear I shed in the waiting room. 

Psalm 56:8 says, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

Blameless Blue Eyes Tears

Leaving a trail of tears as we sojourn down a path of heartache is inevitable this side of heaven, so we would bode well to keep the depth of our relationship with the Lord constant.

Always in my heart…

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Blameless Heart Love 2