I’ve Been Caught!
I’ve been caught! Now what? What’s a girl supposed to do? Should I apologize? What for, I didn’t ask for this disregard. Should I just keep quiet to cover over the offense of another? Now why would I do that, especially given the fact that statistics show the perpetrator will continue? Should I run away with my tail between my legs or should I stand firm, tall, and roar like an angry lion does announcing his forewarning?
Ha! I know what I would like to do! If we’re being honest here, I know most of us would like to see revenge occur when others devalue us, especially when one’s heart has been hurt and violated, right?
That’s when my very own advocate, Jesus Christ, convicts my heart and reminds me that His ways of Love and justice, not to mention vindication (revenge, yes!), will be accomplished completely different than anything I could ever conjure up.
My initial attempts at confronting through Love will be honored, while those who devalued my life and time will be instructed in how to better handle these situations in the future because Love is patient. Love is kind. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails (1 Corinthians 13:4-8).
Honestly, after hearing those beautiful words from my best friend, the Holy Spirit, my Comforter, I had about a three-second sense of peace and contentment; but then the decay stemming from the bitter root inside of my heart wanted out and her revenge didn’t want it accomplished through God’s Love or His ways of justice. I am just being totally honest here because I’m far from a saint. I have feelings and they run deeper than any roots or any circumference of the cedars of Lebanon. Sadly, there are times I’m ready and able to devour and feast on my prey that I’ve been lying in wait for.
It’s a beautiful thing my good, good Father knows me and loves me just the way I am, because right after I completed my Tammy Tantrum at her finest, my Lord reminded me of my beliefs; that every affliction that comes my way and brings God glory through reaching and teaching others is well worth any vindication my mind could dare conjure up because I have seen firsthand the destruction that pride and hate promotes. Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs (Proverbs 10:12).
My Lord reminded me to focus on matters worthy of my attention; that I have quite a challenge before me that will consume all my energy and to let Him take care of this. Isn’t that what a loving daddy does; gently reminds us what to release, where to keep our focus, and to trust Him for the outcome while He blesses us with peace that surpasses all knowledge (Philippians 4:7). How else are we going to make it through another day without it? Each day has enough trouble of its own.
I am so grateful I have the freedom to press into His Word through intimacy and memorize scripture that I cling to for dear life because it’s at these moments when I’m ready to attack by fighting back that my heart and soul gently leads me to quiet pastures in order to regroup and calm down. Sometimes that even requires grabbing me by the bit. It’s better than ripping someone’s head off through words that could easily spew out of my mouth or of the pouring myself a glass of wine just to temporarily calm down which leads into several along with a headache the next day.
Since I’ve been declared innocent and righteous, it only makes sense then to extend that grace to those that have harmed me through Love. It does not mean they will not suffer any subsequent repercussions of their actions, it just helps me to release the sting and be healed. This will require being completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in Love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. There is one body and one Spirit – just as you were called to one hope when you were called (Ephesians 4:2-4).
You might be saying, “Can you really let God have vengeance?” Oh, it was hard at first. That’s when I get to share that after you’ve been caught and touched by my Lord and realize how pursued and chosen you are, abiding in His Love and ways is amazing. The freedom from the bondage and pain that those handcuffs caused releases a little snicker underneath your breath once your spirit (your BFF, best friend forever) reminds you, In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the LORD will reward you (Proverbs 25:22).
Now that’s worth a happy dance! And my heart gets to leap with joy knowing that through loving crazily while being kind to those I encounter that are hard and messy this side of heaven, pours more than hot coals onto their heads. My God, my Lord, claims vindication in the only way that could reap lasting results; Love! I’m really not that kind, it’s just a byproduct of the fruit of the Spirit; Love!
Until next time…
Thank You For Being Beautiful You!