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Giving God The Right To Direct Our Lives!

I will trust Him along the way.  I may stomp and pout, but I’ll give Him elbow room so He can pull it off perfectly!

Gotta let go to know…

Hi friends and family!  When you’re in a dilemma or wanting to do something B-I-G (understatement) and everyone seems to be a naysayer, who or what is your go-to? 

Where do you usually turn?

I used to go directly to my friends FIRST because I value their opinion.  But there’s good reason the Lord cautions us to go to Him first and discuss the matter.  With our friends being so much like us, they’ll usually only tell us what we want to hear anyways, or…

I mean, to tell you to invest thousands of dollars more when they think you’re crazy to begin with is a risky event.

sometimes you just have to put on your big girl panties and deal with it

So…  I decided to just put on my big girl panties and walk by faith.

After all, God brought me to such a time as this…

God cares and when we act at the right time, God will use our courage for the purpose He places us in.

I feel our brave men and women who put their lives on the line each and every day should be treated with respect and honor.

When was the last time you told a law enforcement officer how much you appreciated them?

I’m waffling between radical faith and doubt here.  I’m stressing, putting in an extra 20, 30 hours a week of additional work that is not needed, taking away elbow room God might require to bless me with His undeniable supernatural favor.

Having a Plan B, doing EVERYTHING humanly possible, doesn’t require faith or trust.  It’s called CONTROLLING and MANIPULATING the situation!

Why do we doubt and sabotage and cause ourselves anxieties?  That’s the definition of a double-minded, unstable Beloved.  And I don’t want my faith to be tossed to and fro.

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Holy Spirit keeps nudging me about not having to grab me by the bit to redirect my stubborn fits!

We know we’ve got an awesome God when Holy Spirit convicts and speaks to us like He does.  Hee-haw!  Then again, He does know our hearts and minds. He is our Comforter, our Counselor, our BFF!

When we faith the fear, and I’m talking thousands of dollars it will cost if I fail, not to mention the cost of humiliation, solely to give back to those who do so much for us, it’s scary not knowing if you’re going to get enough donations to make it happen. 

With over 500 tickets requested from just a few law enforcement agencies, and requests are still pouring in, my heart grieves to not be able to fulfill their wishes.  Blessing them with free tickets to their event honoring them is a priviledge!

And here I was led to believe that I was too much to handle?

Ha…

God just reiterates, “I will stay close to you, instructing and guiding you along the pathway for your life.  I will advise you along the way and lead you forth with my eyes as your guide.  So don’t make it difficult; don’t be stubborn when I take you where you’ve not been before.  Don’t make me tug you and pull you along.  Just come with me” (Psalm 32:8-9 TPT).

I love when I stay present.  When I focus on God and not my anxieties, I’m able to see the treasures God places along my path that bring me comfort and confirmation. That’s Papa God’s way of saying, “I see you and love you, Beloved.” 

This plane says “RESCUE” with a missile hole-turned-heart alongside of the aircraft!

That plane needed some pink hearts to speak life into all those bullet holes.

Enough said…

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I laugh as I’m listening to a Joyce Meyer’s sermon as I’m typing this, stressed.  Joyce was saying something like, “If you’re passionate about something and doubt is driving you nuts wanting confirmation (hello), follow your passion, shut up and move forward.” 

I love that woman!

That my life will never be the same; to go up and never stop.

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I’ve decided to faith the fear and Go up and never stop!  So 500 tickets it is!

Where God guides, He always provides!

If you would like to partner with me in prayer for abundant favor and provision, maybe even donate, our expectations will deliver, Where God guides, He always provides!

So my nonprofit is not going for 100 tickets dedicated to law enforcement officers and the fallen families, we’re going for 500.

Go up and never stop…

Up, up and away…

After all, God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine…

So I’m giving God the right to direct my life and we’ll watch together!

Blameless Go Up and Never Stop!

Yes, it means that much to me…

Until next time…

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Faith vs. Fear? Faith The Fear!

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Faith vs. Fear?

Faith the Fear!

“The first time I was brought before the judge, no one came with me.  Everyone abandoned me.  May it not be counted against them.  But the Lord stood with me and gave me strength…”  2 Timothy 4:16-17 NLT

 

Inmates!  When you think of this infamous title, what comes to mind?  Losers?  Prisoners?  Convicts?  Rejects deserving punishment? 

Better yet, what comes to mind when you hear of excessive force being used by correctional officers along with inmates’ Constitutional rights being violated? 

Who cares?  Hmmmm…

Anyone that knows me or has been following my blog for even a little while knows about my 110% complete devotion and support for ALL of our men and women in blue who have taken an oath and who selflessly sacrifice their lives to help protect and serve their communities. 

Okay, most of them anyways…  There’s always going to be a rotten apple in the barrel that infects and spoils the good ones.  Enough said!  I was married to a dirty cop so I know how that story goes…

That one bad apple didn’t stop me from going through the law enforcement chaplaincy academy after the fact and even serving as a chaplain for the past seven years, nor did being a victim of heinous crimes myself hinder my advocacy work and passion for the rejected and unloved. 

But when a beloved son finds himself in mayhem, I became sandwiched between our justice system and this corrupted force by witnessing firsthand violation after violation causing pain and turmoil to this mama’s child and others by the COs (correctional officers) not following the laws and the rules demanded by our U.S. Constitution.

Where’s the love in this world anymore?  We have become bullies hiding behind the power given to us through lack of governance, social media and our computer screens.  We have become fixated and thrive on corruption and crime and “colluding” and even become energized by real-life drama.  Talk about egotistical people without a moral compass.

When our three-year-olds are more familiar with the word “collude” instead of “loved,” we need to take a step back and examine how we are allowing the actions of others to influence our lives.  This includes how we utilize social media to peek, watch, stalk, gossip and even “date others” which is nothing more hazardous than to one’s “selfie.”

What happened to the meeting of minds face to face and loving our neighbors as ourselves?  Would you protect yourself by letting another brother be blamed for the fall?  If a child was getting hurt, would you intervene to protect them or would you click Facebook first and turn your video on and record instead of protecting them?

Every person is a child to some mother or father, so…  

What if this person was sitting in county jail awaiting trial; considered innocent until proven guilty, right?  Here he’s hurt, harassed, hazed, and even refused his Constitutional rights.  He’s put into a cell with another human’s feces on the walls.

Would you just ignore the inhumane discrimination because inmates are considered “losers” in jail or would you stand up for their rights and scream awareness against those who are abusing and usurping their authoritative powers?

This is frightening to come up against, but my God commands we work for justice.  Just because someone is in jail does not mean they’re dehumanized or any less of a Beloved.  God loves us all just the way we are, mistakes and all. 

These inmates have to do the time for their crimes, but between overcrowding, inhumane conditions, and being subjected to excessive force violates their Constitutional rights and it must be stopped.

What happens when you find yourself in the middle of Corruption versus Dedication?  Justice versus Usurping Authority?  Commitment versus Constitution?  Innocence versus Injustice?  Faith versus Fear?

I want to preface that I still stand behind law enforcement knowing full well there’s plenty of rotten apples, but when you find yourself having to go against some of those you once believed in and supported, the betrayal leaves you mad as hell with a passionate pursuit to end all this physical, emotional and spiritual harm. 

I had no idea advocacy meant I would find myself right smack in the middle of an exposed corruption ring within our correctional facilities through excessive force and inhumane conditions while a beloved child was at the core of just a minuscule part of it.

Between healing from surgery and going through further treatment alongside of this corruption case, writing is going to be sporadic and take a backseat as I fulfill my duties being a mom and an inmate advocate and making sure justice prevails.  There’s a mama’s heart that would love to react with my cast-iron horns fully emerged while spewing out flaming arrows, but…

I don’t know what emulating my Lord looks like exactly because each day there’s a new violation and I haven’t always reacted in a positive, loving manner with the COs with all of these emotions.  When your child is under the umbrella of abuse and injustice and his Constitutional rights have been violated again and again, you better believe I’m going to Faith the Fear boldly and courageously!  And I do not care WHO YOU ARE!

I am choosing to love my son mirroring the words penned from Paul in 2 Timothy 4:16-17.  I want him to feel the love of the Lord alongside of him through support, encouragement, visitation, phone calls, unconditional love and especially being an advocate demanding his due rights so he knows he’s not alone. 

Someone has to stand up for these inmates.  The system is slow and corrupt and families and friends dwindle away real quick.

I firmly believe hope replaces discouragement while trust overcomes doubt because my God is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us (Ephesians 3:20).  That’s being His hands and feet!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

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