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Learning God’s Unforced Rhythms Of Grace…

Learning God’s Unforced Rhythms Of Grace…

Reproducing Godly Behaviors

Hi family and friends! I’m praying this week is filled with the little treasures of life, you know, pure love and lots of laughter living through the lens of childlike faith.

Personally, I found myself starting to mirror our world by becoming anxious and spiraling out of control. The intensity of power and control robs us of peace.

It’s nice to get unplugged from all the Breaking News and tap into God’s beautiful gift called His unforced rhythms of grace.

Reproducing Godly behaviors is God’s desire for His beloveds through our fruitfulness. Being challenged to be an example of Godliness to the world and other believers is humbling when you’re living in a glass house requiring maintenance to constantly wash your windows!

God tells us…

Give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways (Matthew 4:26).

How does one give careful thought to the paths for your feet and be steadfast in all your ways when one side wants life and peace while the carnal lust for power wants control?

That’s when my Lord speaks loudly to my heart saying: Tammy, pay attention to what I say; Listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to your body (Proverbs 4:20-22).

Letting God lead us simply means it’s not about us anymore. That’s easier said than done and requires our deliberate focus and seeking, not freaking, to know His next step.

God was pulling my heart strings to let Him guide the way by just sitting at His feet (resting) in total surrender (calmness and trust) instead of being tied up in knots planning all the backup plans of “what-ifs” and the freaking out to orchestrate Plans B and C.

Speaking candidly here, that Control Freak rears her ugly head and wants to wrestle with the Lord resembling Chuckie sometimes!

Why we waste energy worrying and forfeiting peace is beyond me. And why God continues to pursue is beyond our finite minds.

God’s relentless love shapes the way we live and love!

God’s Love is relentless. He speaks, “Child of mine, I want to bless and speak to you in foreign ways. I want you to sit back and trust me. I am giving you an illustration to soothe your anxious thoughts while living under unforced rhythms of grace. You will soon see how I’m going to put everything together. This test is developed to stretch and increase your faith. Trust me.”

His relentless love showcases dolphins, beautiful and playful dolphins, which is a majestic form God sometimes uses to speak to me. It taps into my childlike wonder and delivers comfort to trust. Kind of like my blue butterflies.

Here I am wrapped up so tightly in my own destructive battlefield strategically planning everything out, I lose valuable and precious time that God intended for me to just be, relaxing and basking in how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ (Ephesians 3:18).

Too Blessed To Be Stressed?

I tend to forget to walk out the mindset and authority given by Jesus that I’m too blessed to be stressed! Because if you’re anything like me, you find yourself worrying, planning and stressing yourself out only to look back later and say, “Why did I do that? I created my own fanatical crisis!”

Are you tired?

I am…

Worn out?

Hello…

Burned out on religion?

I don’t do religion; thank you very much! It’s all about a relationship with my beautiful Lord Jesus.

God pursues us saying, Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me – watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavily or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly (Matthew 11:28-30 MSG).

Sweet friend, learn from my lack of trust and obstinance. DO NOT rob God of His amazing gift. His unforced rhythms of grace are easy and light. He never tires in grabbing us by the bit to redirect our stubborn fits, but His Great Love filled with help (no more backup plans) is ALWAYS AVAILABLE if we’ll just trust Him enough to let go of the wheel!

Our Father God REALLY is concerned about every area of our lives. He relentlessly pursues us. Life doesn’t have to be hard. Life is full of beauty and splendor when we learn to let go and TRY and remember it’s not about us anymore.

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

The Decay Of The Waiting Room…

What’s More Painful,

Dilapidated Conditions or Abominable Banter?

Death and decay reek. The woman draws in closer. She obviously feels her exchange of banter is needed. A breath mint might just grant her!

Between the abominable breath causing imminent death, who needs to worry about dilapidated conditions or suspicions.

Oh, I hear her all right. Mix a Xanax with her cheese, please!

Silence is obviously not a known science…

Oh wait, isn’t this where my fav Achmed comes to the rescue?

After all, grief has a way of screaming

The pearls and pitfalls of the cover girl. The tendency to turn my pain into another’s gain. The sounds that hit the ground take more than grace to run this race with a bitter sister from another mother.

Gotta love us women at times when we turn into more than extra-grace required children.

This beloved means well, but her breath isn’t my only bone. I have chosen to sit in this waiting room alone. I need space for this race, unoccupied by this banter which is nothing but epic ranter.

We’re Never Alone With Jesus

I don’t know about you, but I need peace to see every crease of my soul. That’s why my head is down in my Bible so I won’t dread what’s ahead. I am choosing to feel every single pain; physically, emotionally, financially and spiritually. 

Let me cry, as foreign as that may be. Let me grieve, which is foreign to me. Let me just be!

I’m 51 percent introvert and 49 percent extrovert. Many disagree, but do they really know me? I require space so I don’t disgrace!

Blameless Long Walk of Pain

Try being a chaplain; it’s a long walk to talk…

Have you ever wondered why waiting rooms tend to be colder than ice? And I’m being nice…

Time stands still. Life requires more than a will. Love requires being filled from above.

Waiting rooms contain inevitable frustration and tidal waves of depression.

My new friend goes for the jugular, “So… do you still feel God loves you? All that time you spend reading your Bible, what good is it now?”

Love from above…

Pause… one, two, three, four… before reacting. My cast-iron horns were fully emerged and the flaming arrows were deployed to surge.

Space occupied by the enemy who comes solely to kill, steal and destroy has no place here. Then again, maybe her breath mirrors the death inside my own heart.

The lies of the enemy penetrate my heart, but my shield fends off the affliction. I’m left feeling naked instead. My soul will be exposed if I don’t stay controlled and posed.

So my venom leads me down to the ER room, emergency relief room, to pray.

Smiley – Wonderful

My mind ventures back and hangs onto what the amazing Ann Voskamp spoke earlier to my heart:

Is Jesus merely useful to you — or is He ultimately beautiful to you?

When Jesus is useful to me, I’m looking for a genie in a bottle, to give me the life I want.

When Jesus is beautiful to me, I’m looking for His face in my life, to give Him the love I feel.

When Jesus is merely useful to me, I want Him to move my world.

So herein lies my convicted heart. That’s the beauty of the cross, there’s no shame in our game, judgment or condemnation. Instead, there is love and conviction in this affliction.

This consoles my soul because I know the decay in this hallway needs removed today. I choose to see my beautiful Lord’s face in my space.

My heart remembers Lamentations 3:22-26:

22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
23 They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion;
therefore I will wait for him.

25 The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him,
to the one who seeks him;
26 it is good to wait quietly
for the salvation of the Lord.

No wonder the Lord tells us to be ready in and out of season because this season of frying my heart crisp burns through all the lying. The enemy may be able to burn our tender hearts, but he won’t take us down with his assaulting darts.

World War III is fully equipped with grace and that’s key.

Waiting rooms are hard and filled with refinement opportunities; whether it’s medical, financial, legal or relational. When conditions look dilapidated and our lives and hearts become castrated due to these afflictions, it helps to remember the words of John Wesley:

One of the greatest evidences of God’s love to those that love him is, to send them afflictions, with grace to bear them.

My heart and faith is constantly tested during such periods in being weak and scared. The one thing I cleave to is that God loves me enough to take note of every tear I shed in the waiting room. 

Psalm 56:8 says, “You keep track of all my sorrows. You have collected all my tears in your bottle. You have recorded each one in your book.”

Blameless Blue Eyes Tears

Leaving a trail of tears as we sojourn down a path of heartache is inevitable this side of heaven, so we would bode well to keep the depth of our relationship with the Lord constant.

Always in my heart…

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

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Peace In A Violent World…

Can It Really Be Achieved?

According to Isaiah 26:3, God will keep in Perfect Peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you!

With all the strife, division, violence and destruction in today’s world, whether you are a part of it or have been effected (all of us), where do we go to seek shelter and refuge for peace?

The threat is real. Not even our congregations, a place of worship, is safe and sacred anymore. Can we really experience God’s perfect peace in turmoil?

I believe we can be steady and stable during the surrounding chaos if our trust is comforted with God’s mighty power and unchanging love. We don’t have to be shaken by all these cataclysmic events.

I loved how the Country Music Awards last night opened their ceremonial procession with singing Amazing Grace and extending words of peace and harmony! It is fitting, timely and full of truths.

The only Truth we can hold onto right now in a world that is full of destruction is God’s amazing grace! 

We Need To Love The Best We Can And Bloom From Our Roots

How do we love each other and unite together in a world where people would rather kill than sit down and communicate to express our thoughts and feelings or even agree to disagree?

I’m trying to lean into the Lord myself knowing Jesus wept by putting ALL my trust into Him so I can live in peace. I’m a beloved encountering many tragedies myself. But sometimes with all these worries on my plate, all I want to do is run away to my refuge located at the beach and hide while denying reality. 

Blameless Trust Your Path

The beach is my safe spot, my refuge, a place where I experience life-sustaining peace. This is where I get to meet and connect with my Lord freely and uninhibitedly. The presence of each sunset that the Lord magnificently paints just for me brings immeasurable peace as I engage in this period of stillness for rest, reflection and renewal.

I don’t know how my contribution towards “change” is going to look, but I’m not going to allow fear or worry to hinder my moving forward and trust my path. This is going to require God’s perfect peace; peace to hear, to guide and to direct each step.

God’s Love reaches to the depths of our discouragement, our despair, and even death. We are never lost or singled out from His Great Love. Tragically, we have chosen to remove God from our lives and homes and then we wonder where He is when calamity strikes.

I know what the Lord has done for me and what He has done through me. Let me share, His love builds bridges where division has separated and divided.

God’s love reaches every corner of every single one of our experiences!

God’s Love is immeasurable, like the ocean. With its vastness, you realize you’re but one part of many contributors to this magnificent portrait being painted. God’s peace is orchestrated through this opera of brilliant blue-jeweled water as the ocean music soothes with its gentle rippling waves. The air is heavy with ocean spray as the sea song of waves soothe and cleanse the soul.

This reinforces we have power, TOGETHER, with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge (Ephesians 3:18). 

Blameless Psalm 84.12

We wonder why our world is where it is today with all the death, destruction and division when we’ve removed God completely from our lives and homes unless we want to cast blame. I don’t have all the answers, but we can no longer sit back and do nothing.

In order to contribute to change, we need to step out and come together understanding WE EACH MAKE UP and have A PART and responsibility FOR CHANGE through common ground. That takes trust!

Common ground is having 75 courageous women coming together one after another in bringing awareness of the heinous acts against women that Harvey Weinstein violated for decades. It took beloveds who were brave enough to stand up for the rights and justice of others and say enough is enough to initiate change. We can’t let fear and worry paralyze!

Coming Together, Praying Together, and Changing The World Together!

Change can be beautiful. This is where God turns our ashes into beauty. It starts with one bold and determined beloved. Where that bridge is built, others will come. It may initially be awkward, but through Love Himself, all things are possible!

Thoughts and prayers need to be lived out WITH actions! Prayer initiates action, not complacency. This requires peace to trust the One leading. I personally am not going to stop loving the unlovable, nor am I going to stop reaching out extending my heart and hand to those who need to witness the hands and feet of God in action because of fear or worry.

Blameless Darkroom Negatives

We can have a significant voice in this world. Peace overrides worry and fear. Worry only produces negatives in its darkroom. We can be gentle, firm and confident with peaceful spirits when we live out our lives trusting in the One Who is in control and Who will bring vengeance to those who try to kill, steal and destroy.

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Blameless Beautiful When We Come Together

When A Great Multitude Is After You!

F.E.A.R.

Trudging Through the Valley of the Shadow of Death

† C-R-I-S-I-S

This Battle Belongs To The Lord!

“Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army.  For the battle is not yours, but God’s” (2 Chronicles 20:15).

When fears of reality set in.  You can either face everything and run or face everything and rise!  I’m running…

Or wanting to!!!

What was once lurking in the shadows to kill, steal and destroy is now looking you square in the eyes!  You look to the left, to the right, even behind you, but this enemy has one thing on his mind:  Destruction, and you’re already suffocating! 

It has been said that:

Crisis leads us to seek God and to experience Him!

That all-consuming feeling of dread with no solution in sight.  You’re panicked.  The chest tightens.  The heart’s erratic pounding attempts to blow out your eardrums until the hyperventilation cuts off all oxygen to the brain ushering in tingling that rages throughout your body and renders you paralyzed; all stemming from the test delivered by the multitude

That’s fear delivering a full-blown panic attack initiated by facing the reality of these crises which surround me.  Their relentless push against my faith leaves me utterly deflated.

Crises come in various forms.  The intense difficultly and important decision-making requirements from this vast army can be health-related, relational (good ‘ole family funk), financial, vocational, legal, or even spiritual.

My panic attack included all the above.  And after the bad hair date with my dreamy surgeon, where’s a girl to go to get massive reconstruction these days?

Where’s the faith, hope and love that is at the heart of this girl’s life when battling the enemy whose affliction and agitated fear has plunged me into quicksand?  

God Fights Against Our Vast Armies

I know God has delivered me from the shackles of fear, Perfect Love casts out all fear (1 John 4:18), but I am truly trembling.  I understand that difficulties strengthen our character and deepen our trust in the Lord as we lean and press in.  I also know they equip us with greater confidence that helps us grow, but this girl is nearly six feet tall already, so…

Overwhelmed By Circumstances

No matter how loud or hard you scream for help (I have a big mouth!), I never thought that the quicksand could take me under.  The swampland has never succeeded before, but it nearly did this time, and I experienced and felt things deep inside that I don’t remember ever feeling. 

Just because I’m seasoned in my faith walk and madly in love with my Lord does not mean I do not get overwhelmed by circumstances like new Christians.  Especially when it hits all at the same time.  I sink quicker!

When there’s absolutely nothing we can humanly do, problems everywhere, hurricanes and earthquakes to name just a few, one thing after another, along with being surrounded by those against us, that’s when we have to look up and see God standing there reaching out saying, “Treasured daughter, look to me.  Grab my hand.  Keep breathing.  I am right here.  You are not alone.  Nor are you left to battle this crisis alone.”

What happened to your faith?  Why did you take your eyes off of me and focus on this raging storm surrounding you?  Nothing has changed except your focus. 

I had never felt the weight of this kind of crushing crisis.  And I’ve lived through my fair share.  That’s when the Lord guided me to 2 Chronicles 20.  He reminded me of His Truths with absolutely no sugared-coated serendipities!

Testing sucks…  Especially in the form of crisis.  You know, this feeling of dread and hopelessness that I felt was overwhelming.  Between the panic that overwhelmed my body and the lack of oxygen going into my brain, it made my body quiver and shake.  It clouded over any natural fight-or-flight response.

I started to react with old behaviors where I would deny it and run like a mad dog or even reach for a bottle of Jesus Juice (wine) to numb the feelings that were raging throughout my body, but this time I am facing these crises head-on and I hate every second of it.

During our crisis, we need to see and experience our God.  When the enemy invades and we feel completely hopeless, we are inviting, even leading, God to intervene on our behalf and speak into the situation.  That means adjusting to God’s lead, not the other way around, darn it!  That includes feeling the pain, experiencing it and letting it go.

Face the Facts with Faith

As Rick Warren said, “Face the facts with faith.  Faith is not denying reality, faith is facing the facts without being discouraged by them.” 

God is greater than our problems, but being phony and denying how we’re feeling and thinking is a flat-out lie.  Worst-case witnessing, Christians lying, even denying, the truth of their realities.  How else can we learn?

Faith is facing the facts without being discouraged by them.  This is why I try and remember to faith the fear!  This battle belongs to the Lord. 

My proclamation:  Beloveds who choose to keep their focus on our amazing Lord walk through crises courageously because they know that heaven rules and earth will never have the last word!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Two Are Better Than One… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Blameless True Friends 1

Two are better than One,

because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
    his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
    and has no one to help him u
p!

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Hello Beautiful!  I hope you are having an amazing week realizing just how beautiful you are.  I pray you were able to rest in God’s grace and be cleansed by His lathering of love.  It’s amazing what refreshment does to a parched soul.  Living in peace blossoms the true beauty within.  It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

God designed our lives for companionship, the need for others, not living in isolation and going at it alone.  Loneliness was never a part of God’s orchestration, instead He created the beauty found in intimacy with Him and one another.  We need each other!  Let’s challenge ourselves this week to be a true friend with childlike intentions.  Let’s share Blameless Blossoms True Beauty Withinour story with another Beloved the struggles we are feeling through the lens of Truth and Trust as we embrace this gift in what vulnerability offers while being raw and candid.  The healing that will come from this transparency will be liberating, but it will also bond you to the one you’re sharing with.

One thing I have learned by allowing my life to be completely exposed (and I’m talking about being totally naked here with nowhere to hide) through the transparency, rawness and complete vulnerability is we all struggle with insecurities, feelings of shame, defeat, fear, anxiety, depression, you name it!  We’re all imperfect beings living in an imperfect world so why hide behind our struggles of imperfections that are intended to help us grow and become even more radiant!  When we share our lives with another Beloved, it offers peace knowing someone else is shouldering the pain.  This is how God turns our ashes into beauty.  Living in peace blossoms the true beauty within!

When we open up our lives by sharing areas of weakness that are uncomfortable for us to talk about, it paves the way for God to bring healing and support needed to battle and conquer our darkness.  We are also blessing the other person we’re sharing with because if we are opening up our hearts, that expresses to the other person that they’re loved and worthy of trust.  When we share our lives and struggles with one another, it not only unlocks our fears and the suppressed pain, but it gives God the room to bring healing to that area we didn’t want touched, much less exposed. 

We need community and we need each other; that’s how God designed us.  Sharing our stories offers intimacy and it opens the window to see clearly through the lens of how God intended true friendships to be.  No matter how old we are, there is still a little girl residing within our tender hearts who wants to love and be loved and play.  

Seeing through the lens of a True Friend is acknowledging the need for others.  In fact, a true friend is someone who sees the pain in your eyes while others believe the smile you’re wearing!  Blameless True Friends 1This requires sharing the good, the bad and the ugly.  You’ll be blessing that other person by sharing your struggles because they’re probably going through similar trials themselves.  Trust is a treasure chest filled with golden nuggets. 

This is the beauty found in connections.  Sharing leads to trust.  Trust leads to healing.  Healing then brings peace and beauty out of the ashes.  True friends make our good days better, but they also offer strength to make the hard times lighter and easier through their love and support.  We just have to reach out and Be-Loved!

We all have hundreds of acquaintance-type friends between social media and through our own channels of networking.  We also have friends that have been in our lives for years, yet for whatever reason, the friendship remains on the superficial side without vulnerability because of past betrayal or through gossip and hurts.  Let’s embrace our friendships or even cultivate new ones enjoying the benefits of being a true friend first so we can get to a new level of deeper understanding and intimacy together.

After all, Ecclesiastes 4:9-10 reminds us: 

Two are better than one,
    because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down,
    his friend can help him up.
But pity the man who falls
    and has no one to help him up!

Weekly Challenge:  Challenge yourself this week to reach out and share your story with a friend or a new friend and watch the bond of that transparency and vulnerability remove the veil of shame that you’ve been hiding behind.  When we share our hurts, others will share theirs as well.  There’s nothing in our lives worthy of shame to hide behind.  We have been redeemed and we are Beautiful Beloveds, royal heiresses to the kingdom of God.  Let’s claim what freedom being the real beautiful “us” offers.

There is no shame in our game; Jesus is His name! 

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

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Door of Trust ~ Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Blameless Proverbs 3.5

Door of Trust

Hello Beautiful!  I pray you’re having a blessed week filled with all the love, memories, and yummy leftovers that Thanksgiving brought.  I know it’s going to be loose skirts and leggings for a while so I can enjoy every last morsel.  It’s that time again; it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!  I was praying that you were able to embrace Thanksgiving with tender hearts that were open, alert and present, filled with all the joy and gratitude that last week’s challenge inspired.  In case you missed it, just click here Enter With Thanksgiving.  

So many of us Beloveds are already in high gear (me, me, me) with going through heavy seasons filled with grief, loss and unknowns.  Add in the burden brought on by the additional demands vying for our attention on top of an already maxed out calendar, like the shopping for Christmas, the wrappings, decorations, let alone the feasts and festivities, this can be anything but merry for some of us Beloveds.

When we’re burdened and consumed with the torment in worrying about other matters that pertain to the future with all the unknowns and what-if’s that are occupying today’s space, this pollutes and robs our hearts and minds of the joy and blessings meant solely for today, not to mention the interference it plays in preparing our hearts and souls for the true meaning of Christmas.

Proverbs 3:5 (NIV) tells us to “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.”  How can we surrender the worries of tomorrow while entering through the front door of trust when we’re walking and living in the fears and anxieties of tomorrow? 

What if we become still long enough to experience and trust the One inviting us to enter and walk through the Door of Trust.  Stick with me here :-).  God promises to equip us with the liberty needed in order to walk through and lock up our bad neighborhoods (mindsets) one last time in order to remove the clutter of tomorrow’s worry.  This clutter occupies way too much space to begin with and it zaps us of our energy and strength needed for today.

Let’s trust the Lord for today and taste and see His goodness as we embrace the beauty in each step.  Now we can stop and see and be filled with wonder at all the care and thoughtfulness that went into each and every stepping stone with Blameless Stepping Stones Heart 1hearts of love (gifts) that God specifically designed just to bless us with.  Each day God graces us with enough strength, encouragement and peace we all seek and need!  If we don’t stop long enough to open and encounter these gifts for today, we are robbing God of the blessings in answering our prayers that our knees bleed for.

I don’t know about you, but if there is a gift laying in my path wrapped up just for me, you better believe I want to be in the right neighborhood (mindset) so I can see it and open it up (MINE! ).  Do not worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will worry about itself (Matthew 6:34).  Wouldn’t this help ease our loads, make better decisions for tomorrow, and help us be present and alive in the moment?

I have to laugh because I am guilty as charged of this.  How many times have we been so preoccupied with plans and/or thoughts and actions, you know, engaging in a battlefield of our mind, when we walk right past a girlfriend without any sort of acknowledgement because we are too busy living in the wrong neighborhood to see the cheerful gift right before our very eyes?

Now we have created another problem; our friend’s feelings are hurt because we were too busy battling the drama going on in our own minds!  Let’s remove some of that occupied space; it belongs in tomorrow, so we can open ourselves up to receive God’s gift of blessings for today.  We will feel a whole lot lighter; and following Thanksgiving, I’ll take that blessing any ‘ole day!

Weekly challenge:  This week let’s be intent with great expectation in going through the Door of Trust each and every day looking for all of the hidden treasures that God’s love has strategically laid out before us to guide and direct our lives.  Leave tomorrow’s worries where they lay so we’re not blinded from picking up and receiving the gifts meant for just us today.

God does care and He is holding our hearts; after all, He calls us His Beautiful Beloveds, so of course He wants to take care of us!  Let’s give Him some room.

Until next time…  

Trust the One who holds the key to your heart; after all, He made you and calls you His Beautiful Beloved!

 

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