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Becoming Love…

Animals Versus Human Beings,

Whose Life Is More Valuable?

An adorable puppy was found left on the side of a Sacramento freeway with his skull bashed in. It was clear he had been abused.

It made news headlines.

Tragically so… 

People were knocking each other out to contribute financially for his needed care!

What kind of monster would smash the head in of a two-month-old puppy with a hammer?

Then again, what sick person would take a military-style weapon into an elementary school and start taking their aggression and deep hurts out by shooting and killing innocent children?

When more value is placed on the Animal Kingdom than Mankind, we need to revisit our priorities!

Combing through all these tangles and snags of deception is brutal. We’ve obviously viewed these tragedies blinded while they laid dormant awaiting a spark to ignite the wick of mania explosion.

We need what only a miraculous Divine intervention can offer now.

Blameless Light Of Your Love

Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God (Romans 15:7).

I thought we united as a society where all lives matter! Was that just a trend and it fizzled?

If we appreciate and celebrate each others’ lives, then why are our pocketbooks overflowing when it comes to injured animals, but we become bankrupt and blind when it’s regarding our forsaken homeless?

Thank God He never forsakes us…

If we are accepted and celebrated, why is man’s best friend more valuable than a beloved that God created and designed in His own image?

I love animals and love to rescue. It’s beautiful so many people had compassionate hearts and donated money to give life to this puppy. But why are our pocketbooks or belongings sealed up tight when donations are solicited for homelessness?

Homeless people should be considered more valuable than a puppy. Homeless beloveds have the same needs as puppies; they need love, nurturing, guidance and patience to learn behaviors that will equip them with tools to make better decisions. 

I know what it’s like to be rejected and orphaned by those who were supposed to nurture, love and protect while providing a loving environment to learn and grow from.

When you’ve been abandoned, you often make decisions and choices that are not in the best interest of anyone. Bad choices follow you around like the plague, waiting to kill, steal and destroy.

Every single one of the drops of blood Jesus shed had a name written in it!

Jesus died for us, our sins, and was resurrected to eternal life so He could take hopeless situations and flood them with His Love and hope. Beautiful Jesus takes our many broken pieces and turns them into peace.

These precious and homeless souls need to be shepherded to Him for healing. Jesus Is the reason in every season and has Risen!

As Vironika Tugaleva states, “I can’t change you and you can’t change me, but together we can work to change the world.”

Inspiring just ONE person ALREADY changed the world.

We all need affirmations and validation that will tear down the cement barriers surrounding our tattered and bleeding hearts in need of Jesus’ healing. 

Changed lives change Cities!

Since the depth of our past reveals the height of our future (thank God I’m almost six feet tall), are our heads too far up our pasts to see that we are putting more value on animals than mankind?

God’s love is not based on performance. Jesus became Love. Before Jesus ever performed any miracle, He had the validation of God’s love speaking from Heaven saying, “This is my Son, whom I love…” (Matthew 17:5).

God does not validate like we do. We validate based on what people do for us and how they make us feel. If our actions validate and bring value to what that individual needs, they in turn love. God validates based on relationship and that relationship requires intimacy.

Every single one of those drops of Jesus’ blood shed on the cross was for me and for you. Each drop had our names on them.

We can be 100% certain, even if we don’t have any further direction for our lives, that being and becoming LOVE is always God’s will for us. Giving love away is easy, but it requires action. The only thing it costs is ourselves, our time and action.

That includes when there’s traffic…

When we’re waiting in long lines…

When the doctor is an hour behind…

When our in-loves (in-laws) are moving in…

When we feel we’re accepted and loved, our self-esteem and confidence is boosted and it helps us make better choices and decisions. We start trusting others. And where Love radiates, our Beautiful Jesus heals.

I know this personally, because though my father and mother abandoned me, the Lord received me graciously (Psalm 27:10) with new life.

 

Blameless Jesus on Cross

It’s amazing what His Love does for us. The alchemy of transformation is nothing short of miraculous!

When Good Friday comes upon us and Easter, let’s be awakened to the beauty that every tear and drop of blood Jesus shed suffering His unconscionable crucifixion on the Cross had a name written in it as He Became Love Himself.

I don’t know about you, but my name was in one of those bloody droplets along with many homeless people’s names. Now that’s Love!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

 

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Be The Change You Wish…

 Be The Change You Wish…

…To See In The World!

I sigh heavily being disarmed in the face of accountability. Crocodile tears stream down my cheeks. It’s hard to prioritize during change. My frustrations are better kept under lock and key, similar to my writings called Leftovers of Love and Insecure-Gram. These are posts written in their most vulnerable and rawest state, but have been concealed due to judgment. One hundred and ninety-five of them to be exact, awaiting the final editing when courage arises.

When I get a thought that lingers in my mind and starts to torment, making me uncomfortable, the old me would go smoke a cigarette and have a cocktail to diffuse whatever was taunting me. Now I just open my Bible or laptop and start typing.

What pours out of my heart unhindered is liberating. Most of the time, it’s full of rawness and pain. This complete exposure is hard to share because it ushers in judgment and ridicule from others instead of support while being transparent.

Why do we do that?

I’m still shackled with remnants of the funky flu, along with a compromised immune system. Oh, I may smile energetically while praising my Lord because that is where my heart and life resides, but it does not mean behind that joyful exterior is no suffering.

The pain I encounter every step of the way resembles more of an electrifying jolt striking every joint, nerve and blood vessel in my body.

The words that flow from my mouth are no longer eloquent. They are often jumbled and make absolutely no sense. I may laugh nervously because I’m scared about losing my capability to engage and function with vitality like I am accustomed to.

Frustration makes me want to run, hide and cry! I attempt to shrug it off like it’s nothing, honestly. Mainly exhaustion. Here my body is shutting down and I do not know how to slow down and practice self-compassion. Frowning and drowning in my tears is not a solution here when others are suffering.

I’m just trying to be the change I wish to see in the world.

This can be a heavy burden at times, especially when you don’t feel good.

Please pray for me…

Where is all of this coming from?

I have this passionate pursuit to make a difference in our world called leaving a legacy of love.

With epidemics of war, homelessness and disease, how does one start utilizing their depleted time in being a part of the solution, especially when we’re not healthy?

Do I spend time watching TV, checking social media or serving real life human needs?

Hello…

I strive and thrive to be the hands and feet of God which makes me alive. That’s why I’m developing a nonprofit organization; to embrace God’s grace! Oftentimes this passion comes at a great cost and pain that I don’t share with the world.

Just because I don’t wail out relentless complaints does not mean I’m not hurting. It just means I’m applying that energy to making a difference and not focusing on my indiscretions and discouragements.

Blameless Homeless 2

My heart has been heavy since my beautiful girlfriend knocked on my door unexpectedly with concerns. Her beautiful care package was filled with goodies and her precious time was invaluable in sharing her heart regarding my overwhelmed schedule.

Respecting and valuing my beliefs that life is about bringing love to others, whether it’s through time, service and/or relationships, this kindness and generosity extended spills over into all of our relationships when they’re chaperoned by our words and actions.

What a beautiful legacy than to have a life characterized by love and kindness!

Her words stung when confronting me about prioritizing and obedience. Not wanting to admit I’m suffering and slowing down is only exacerbating matters. All because of pride, perfectionism and deep love.

She shared, “I have been watching you. I do not understand why a woman who is ailing continues to present herself to a world in such a relentless manner while suffering more than those she is trying to love on and care for.”

Why would anyone give up the comforts of an accomplished life in order to live, love and serve those who have been rejected?

Please forgive me for my shallowness and deceit in leading you to believe that I live a pain-free life. I never meant to present myself with imagery that was anything but brutally honest. It’s just called walking through each day with F-A-I-T-H, knowing God has my back and that this shall soon pass!

I get this emotional and spiritual charge out of helping and loving others, especially the homeless and rejected. Talk about rejuvenation through release.

May I share something?

This is just a glimpse of what we encounter. This is our reality…

Blameless Gigi 2.24.18

Let me introduce you to Gigi. Gigi is that beautiful heap of skin and bones consisting of 83 pounds laying underneath those two blankets in 27-degree weather. She’s literally laying on the freezing cold cement sidewalk in the worst possible area of Sacramento.

Once our worship music started, she came to life. Heaven opens those pearly gates once Stacia starts singing and we loudly proclaim God’s Love through time, engagement, comfort, food and prayers.

One life at a time…

Since Jesus refuses to relent, shouldn’t we?

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Seven Days of Gratitude… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

Gratitude Wall

Seven Days of Gratitude…

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows (James 1:17).

Hello Beautiful! I pray you’re having a blessed week so far and are enjoying being a member of the H-O-T Club; you know, doing life together with other Beautiful Beloveds that operate under the conviction of being honest, open, and transparent. Talk about building community! 

Oh, how our Lord smiles with great joy knowing His Beautiful Beloveds are coming together to connect, celebrate and contribute while being honest, open and transparent.

It’s that time again, it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays…

With all the raging storms filled with heartbreaking tragedies affecting our world today, it’s challenging to keep our minds focused on the beauty, life and peace that our Beautiful Jesus offers us.

If only we could keep our minds focused on our Beautiful Jesus and be grateful, we would sojourn this side of heaven knowing:

We’re here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We’re going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don’t think I’m going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I’m putting you on a light stand. Now that I’ve put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand—shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you’ll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven (Matthew 5:14-16 MSG).

Life is all about our Heavenly Father, you know, and the glory we bring to His amazing name. That requires being grateful and not lives filled with groans and grumblings.

Blameless Matthew 5.16

This weekly challenge should be fairly easy to do, but it will require some dedication and determination, especially if life has brought on unexpected challenges or tragedies due to the effects from natural disasters, disease, or even the tragic death of a loved one.

We can always find items we’re grateful for that deliver the blessings that a cheerful heart being great medicine offers so our crushed spirits won’t dry up our bones (Proverbs 17:22). 

Writing down items that we are grateful for in our journals or on a piece of paper (journal wall) and posting it to our refrigerators where we frequent often, even taping it to the bathroom mirror or better yet, copy it to the wallpaper on our cellphones (♥♥) , as a great reminder and a gentle way to help transform our hearts and minds to a place that transcends all understanding.

Being grateful is powerful medicine and a great healer. Also, it’s great medicine for our souls, you know, the antidote that keeps our attitudes in check that acts similar to an accountability partner.

Blameless Community of Light and Love 1

Weekly challenge:  Write down seven items each day on your journal wall that you’re grateful for daily for seven consecutive days. They cannot be repeated again once you’ve listed them as an item you’re grateful for.

At the conclusion of this challenge, you will have a tangible reminder of forty-nine reasons to be grateful for and it will help rejuvenate your downcast soul. 

Come to the Grateful Wall and start documenting your items by listing what you’re grateful for. Remember, give thanks to the Lord, for His love endures forever (Psalm 136:1).

Sweet friend, one thing our tender hearts must never lose sight of:  We are not here by mistake. There is a plan for our lives and we are woven together to radiate our Papa God’s light this side of heaven.

If we believe in the life, death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, our future, which is our eternal destiny, is built on the most amazing and solid foundation that can never be shaken, destroyed or taken away from us (Hebrews 12:28). 

James 1:17 reminds us, “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” 

That means… We have a lot to be grateful for!!!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

 

James 1:17

Prayers Needed For Our Children and Schools

Prayers Deliver Needed Change…

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

“My daughter has no voice. She was murdered last week, shot nine times on the third floor,” said Andrew Pollack. Father of one of the 17 victims in Florida’s school shooting massacre.

He continues, “This shouldn’t happen. We go to the airport, I can’t get on the plane with a bottle of water, but we leave some animal to walk into a classroom and shoot our children.”

The remnants of another tragic school shooting massacre.  It’s time the voices of the victims be heard and not muted. Prayer is needed for protection and guidance.

We cannot merely leave it at prayer, though. We must come back together in unity and work proactively! Trauma interrupts routine. Prayer initiates C-H-A-N-G-E!

Blameless Children Path Prayer

Since Jesus loves the little children of the world, shouldn’t we?  With another violent school shooting, it’s time that WE ALL COME TOGETHER IN AGREEMENT and begin PRAYING for the angel armies to lead and build a hedge of protection surrounding our schools, the precious children, teachers, the staff, and the surrounding grounds.

There is already enough crime infiltrating and infecting our schools today through drugs and bullying. We have taken for granted that our schools are safe environments. Hurt people hurt others and sadly, our kids are not exempt. That’s generally where the pain originates. 

Coming together interlinked with empowerment delivers the awareness and education that our children need to help keep them safe. Understanding we can no longer shelter them by sequestration is vital. All that is doing is instilling fear and leaving them vulnerable to attack when they leave their nests, their safe-havens.

Let’s introduce them to the outpouring of L-O-V-E Himself that is very much alive!

Living in an evil world where the enemy roams around looking for someone to devour, we need to get back to the basics by bringing God back into our lives and schools! It’s sad how we continue to shake our fists at the Lord when we’ve completely rejected and removed Him from our lives.

Jesus is our Great Advocate and it is our responsibility to know our role here in bringing justice and implementing it in our society. That takes a village with many eyes and ears to keep watch.

Everyone…

Has…

A part…

And role…

In building…

Lives…

And restoring…

Protection and peace!

Blameless Living For God

Every Decision To Live For God Will Never Leave You With Regrets!

Since Perfect Love casts out all fear (1 John 4:18), a beautiful solution to the problem is to take one or two minutes a day as we’re dropping our kids off at school, or even those precious grandbabies, by praying a quick prayer that the hedge of protection surrounds each and every child, the school grounds, the teachers, staff members and the surrounding areas.

Even when you pass by a school bus, just lifting that precious cargo up to the Lord in a quick prayer will keep them protected. Prayers need not be dissertations. God knows our hearts.

God wants to hear us proclaiming:

God, you’re our refuge. We trust in you and are safe!

This includes our precious children and grandchildren.

You rescue us from hidden traps and shield us from deadly hazards. 

Your huge outstretched arms protect us – under them we’re perfectly safe; Your arms fend off all harm.

We shall fear nothing – not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows (or bullets) in the day, nor the disaster that erupts at high noon ( emphasized Psalm 91).

Blameless Hands of God 4.4

Strength and Beauty comes from Community!

If you’re walking your child to school, what an opportunity this is to witness and teach your child the importance of prayer. Explain to them that you will be hanging out for an extra couple of minutes to pray silently over the school.

Who knows, kids are bright and they want nothing more than to mirror their parents’ actions, so they may want to start praying with you.

Before you know it, their friends will see you all praying and the domino effect proclaiming our dependence on God through prayer will be glorified. You will even meet new people.

This seed that you sowed will bloom into a protective community filled with many parents and children coming together before school to pray, all because you walked out your faith with prayer.

What a huge testimony and witness!

Blameless Proverbs 22.6

It’s a different world out there today, so we need to incorporate daily the armor of God (Ephesians 6:13-18) while instilling the Biblical values and protection daily with our kids. They need to be prepared and equipped; not sheltered and naive about what is happening in society today! 

Kids watch and will follow our lead. It’s up to ALL OF US to be great examples as parents, grandparents, teachers, family members, and even mentors! How about just caring as a member of your community; remembering everyone affects others; good or bad. 

Those babies have a long road ahead of them!  We need to help teach them and guide them by letting them know they’re not alone in this and they need not fear.

Jesus intercedes on our behalf; shouldn’t we do the same for others?  This is yet another way to be the hands and feet of God; and we all want and need to protect the purity and innocence of our children!  ♥♥

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Blameless Just Because Beautiful You 1.1

 

You Are Changing The World… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

 You Are Changing The World…

…When Your Love Changes Another’s World!

Love Changes Everything! 

I was hungry and you fed me

I was thirsty and you gave me a drink

I was homeless and you gave me your room

I was shivering and you gave me clothes

I was sick and you stopped to visit

I was in prison and you came to me

All Because His Great Love Changes Everything!

Caring for the poor, the sick, the homeless, and the oppressed is the central tenet of our beautiful gospel and a sampling of the rippling effects of LOVE in Matthew 25:35-36.

Love…

We all crave it and need it to thrive and survive the grave!

Love is such a simple word, used often so frivolously, without knowing the costly meaning. Love isn’t a feeling. Oh sure, love does tap into our feel-good dopamine receptors while wrapping our bodies with excitement. But love moves us into selfless action.

This small act of love creates a ripple that doesn’t cripple. This rippling effect grows from the core of love that soars above like a dove. Higher and higher!

We may never see the effects from these tokens of love, but we will hear of their life. When we deposit tokens of love, kindness or even laughter into another, life begins anew and new growth breaks through.

Living with intention and purpose is synonymous with the cause and effect of Jesus’ beautiful words in John 15:12, “This is my command: Love one another the way I loved you. This is the very best way to love.”

Every single one of our selfless acts of kindness, loving and cheerful thoughts ushers us into the presence of love. Where LOVE blooms, it looms!

When we have been touched by the love of God, our lives are equipped with an endless supply of golden tokens. Living under the umbrella of Love Himself radiates endless grace.

Each token of kindness deposited through love continues to grow and grow in size and touches others until you can no longer see its border.

Blameless Ripple

Dropping tokens of love through praise and cheer into an overwhelmed and rude hostess, the rippling effect reaches others. Because this encouragement of love diffused her stressed-out nature, she was able to be present and loving towards her children after a hard day.

Her children, being filled with the comforts of love and contentment, sleep well. This blesses their teacher and other students with consolation and instruction that pours into others who are leaning towards destruction.

Smiling at the person who had cut us off earlier instead of exhibiting road rage with the typical extension of middle finger wage confuses the anxious offender.

Stunned and focused on our love reaction, they intuitively react the same; allowing another distressed driver space to escape.

Unbeknownst to us that car needing space was transporting a delirious woman in labor and preparing to give birth in the backseat.

That newborn baby’s life was extended by being delivered safely into a sterile E.R. environment instead of the filthy backseat barrel.

The umbilical cord tied around his neck, depriving him of oxygen, would have delivered death without the rippling effects of LOVE which gave him breath. 

All Because of His Great Love…

Who knows what will become of that newborn (future loving president?) all because a simple act of kindness was received through the token of LOVE. 

We’ll probably never know Love’s rippling effects that continue to grow and grow, nor the power delivered behind its borders, but being a part of it is transforming.

Blameless Animated Heart

Love is the answer to all of our problems. We can never love enough. Love is kind. Love does not anger easily. Love forgives. It covers over all wrongs. When we reciprocate our love like God, it changes us and those in our sphere of influence. It causes us to do amazing, selfless acts that we would otherwise not do.

His Great Love changes everything…

Whenever you did one of these things to someone overlooked or ignored, that was me—you did it to me.  (Matthew 25:40 MSG)

Blameless Change The World

Weekly Challenge:  Let’s open our hearts by initiating a tsunami of love that will reach beyond all borders. After all, love is in the air with Valentine’s Day.

Sojourning with Jesus, hearing his words of love whispered to our hearts, “Be Mine, Sunshine. I love you,” while getting drunk on God’s Love trumps champagne and chocolates, and deposits huge amounts of love into the overdrawn bank accounts of others.

When you’ve been embraced and loved through His amazing grace, you know it’s because His Great Love Changes Everything.

Enjoy the lyrics of Your Love Changes Everything while clicking on the song below.

Lord, you spoke those words.
You spoke so tenderly.
Now I choose to believe
You love me, you love me, you love me!

You’re taking me by the hand again,
Giving me strength to dance again
Cuz your love changes everything.
Your love changes everything!

When my heart is frail
And when I’m incomplete,
I will choose to receive
You love me, you love me, you love me!

Oh, you never fail
When I look at you.
You never fail,
And I trust in you.
And Lord, you never let go.
You never let go of me.
You never let go!

 

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

I Just Called To Say… Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

 I Just Called To Say…

…I Love You & Share I Care!

Tammy Tangent Tuesdays

The Lord sustains them on their sickbed and restores them from their bed of illness (Psalm 41:3).

Hi Beautiful! I hope you received the many prayers offered up last week asking Beautiful Jesus to cover us with undeniable peace and joy. What a way to open the floodgates of compassion. After all, that is the gift of the Holy Spirit’s work in our lives! It’s that time again; it’s Tammy Tangent Tuesdays!

I don’t know about you, but I have been held captive and bed-bound by that funky flu. I’ve never held onto a high fever for more than a couple of days and felt every joint in my body scream for more than ice cream!

Being sick sucks, especially when you have to miss out on a Jesus Culture concert and conference, along with doing life with peeps you just love to eternity. Too many days being blue with the flu!

I have been crying out like a baby, Have mercy on me, LORD, for I am faint; heal me, LORD, for my bones are in agony (Psalm 6:2).

No Need To Be Blue With The Flu,

We Love You!

How many times have we all been blue with the flu or down with another ailment like insecurities, anxiety or depression and feel rejected and unloved because our presence wasn’t acknowledged being absent and no one seemed too concerned to reach out and inquire as to why?

I admit, I’m a beloved who has a hard time being receptive to this special kind of love because I’m the one who is generally taking care of others and I don’t want to be a burden.

Oftentimes, I find myself pushing away these treasured tokens of love subconsciously that others are trying to bless me with, like picking up prescriptions, juice, soup, you name it, all due to not wanting to impose.

Time is Treasure!

Being graced multiple times during this flu bout in having some sugar poured out on me was a true gift. They not only acknowledged I was missing in action and being pretty quiet, but they were concerned enough to reach out and call to find out.

The blessings found through the valuable couple of minutes deposited a treasure chest overflowing with L-O-V-E!

 

Power of Prayer!

The most valuable and precious gift that helped me receive this outpouring of love was the intimate blessings delivered during prayers.

Prayers bond us intimately to others. They sustain us and they open the door to the vulnerability knocking. There’s also power in numbers, so bring the prayer chain and warriors on.

I just called… to say I love you!

There’s a reason our Lord arms us with His strength to press through sickness and disease by equipping us with the gift of friendships that will help carry our load. He doesn’t want His beloveds discouraged and defeated, defenseless to any dreaded disease.

Our lives are often full of battles, filled with stresses and anxieties. Add sickness to the list and it makes life hard to show up and get loved on. Phone calls and prayers cure all, keeps others protected from the cesspool of funky flu drool, and sprinkles life with love through prayers. They are rare, but they show we care!

God gave us courage-infusing and peace-giving passages that all of us need to boldly proclaim warrior status for good reason. For instance, Proverbs 12:25 expresses, “An anxious heart weights a man down, but a kind word cheers him up.”

A. Kind. Word. Cheers. Him. Up.

A quick call to see what is needed and prayer (not the time to purge your junk) cheers us beloveds up because it shows someone cares.

I become weakened when I suffer through sickness, emotionally and spiritually. When I suffer, I fret and worry and find myself parked in the wrong hood (mindset) because I’m sick and sulking and can’t show up to be encouraged and supported.

Blameless Sick and Struggling

Weekly Challenge:  Let’s be beloveds that reach out in being God’s hands and feet this week. Let’s radiate His love and spread sunshine to those who have been living under cloudy skies.

If we haven’t connected with an old friend for a while due to schedule conflicts or have noticed that a brother or sister is missing in action at church, let’s be beloveds that reach out and pour love into their lives while inquiring about their absence.

What an amazing way to show another they’re loved, their life matters, they’re affirmed and they’re missed! Talk about an antidote that cures all.

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!

Blameless Rainbow That Keeps Giving

And Your Secret Sauce Is…

 And Your Secret Sauce Is…

“Enthusiasm Is A Supernatural Serenity”

Henry David Thoreau

I walked into the high-rise building wearing my superhero attitude and high-heeled boots relishing sanguine expectations. “Enthusiasm can help you find the new doors, but it takes passion to open them. If you have a strong purpose in life, you don’t have to be pushed. Your passion will drive you there.”

Thank you, Roy T. Bennett, for blessing me with words to live by!

Warning: I’m a contagious carrier of enthusiasm!

The panel started taking their seats as I was ushered to mine, center stage. Sitting before me in an interrogation manner was a panel of 13 peers. With laser-beam eyes penetrating straight through my heart and into my soul, I felt exposed and naked. Talk about uncomfortable. And I had nowhere to run and hide.

I had this overwhelming sense of dread. Similar to what the adulterous woman in the Bible must have felt who was literally caught in the act. Here she was being carried away and rushed towards judgment and death without the other participating party. She was in shock and thrown forcibly to the ground; bound to meet her demise being stoned to death by her peers (John 8:1-11).

Fear is dreadful!

I was surrounded by 13 chairs (yes, lucky 13) in a semi-circle manner. A few members of the panel were even outside of my peripheral vision.

Rule Number 1, always know where your enemy is.

My eyes quickly scanned the room for an emergency exit. That is one of the first things you’re taught in the academy. Naturally, this exit was too far to flee quickly.

Oh, vanity! That deceitful empowerment I get when wearing those high-heeled boots…

A graceful exit?

NOT…

More like a bruised ego!

As I took a deep breath, my mind inquires how and why I’m here? I don’t need a job. Lord knows, I need sleep! Maybe a few donors and monetary partners for the nonprofit’s setup and homeless needs, but…

Suddenly, loud proclamations interrupt…

I’m creating an extraordinary life to make a difference in the world. 

The sweat from my pits only enhances my nervous ditz as I try and take control of a heart rate that begins to frustrate!

“Live your truth. Express your love. Share your enthusiasm. Take action towards your dreams. Walk your talk. Dance and sing to your music. Embrace your blessings. Make today worth remembering.”

Thank you, Steve Maraboli.

Blameless Matthew 5.14

Be the Light!

I looked up and forgot for a magical moment, you know those unforced rhythms of grace, that I was being scrutinized and examined by my peers.

Their silence was eerie. You could literally hear a pin drop.

Due to the lengthy silence, my heart had given way to shallow idling and a cottonmouth that would take a big-rig mechanic’s pliers to pry open.

They just sat there comatose, dead silent, while offering nothing but suggesting a super-size distress signal…

Mayday! Mayday!

Between their laser-beam eyes looking up and down, a few nods of affirmation and a whole lot of rejection rolls of the eyes sizing me up, nothing was said.

Can I hear awkward?

Then it happened, after 4.33 bloody minutes (their timer) of the torturing silence, their blackout awakened. Out of nowhere, a helium-sucking voice muttered, “What’s your secret sauce?”

I cracked…

I cursed…

I tinkled…

I lost it!

When I say “I cracked,” I am talking about an uncontrolled heckling mirroring a laughing hyena.

My children can vouch how I’ve had to hide under a table or two due to the uncontrolled release of toxins and stressors conducted through laughing. They may laugh, but it’s more of an embarrassment at my cost.

With my cheeks flaming with humiliation, the burn intensified from their piercing eyes and disgusted mannerisms. They found absolutely no humor in the aforementioned.

What’s a girl supposed to do now?

Think…

What is my focus?

Not happening right now.

What is my passion? My gifts?

Hot ooey-gooey molasses of shame coated my royal veins as thousands upon thousands of unwanted adornment, beads of sweat, bounced off and found their way dripping down my face.

Now that’s attractive!

Forget the pits of the ditz!

This river of sweat marshaled my anxiety right into hyperventilation.

Calling all angel armies to the rescue!

Blameless Enthusiasm

I’m trying to remember that I’m creating an extraordinary life to make a difference in the world. And that means it’s all about the journey, not the end result!

What’s my secret sauce?

My gift of enthusiasm is what breathes life and energy into my weary bones to accomplish great things that will glorify my Lord.

So this means when we have enthusiasm, the yoke carried from the weight of fear, rejection and doubt loses its power over our lives (Matthew 11:29-30), right?

I want to master the unforced rhythms of grace.

Live, Laugh, Love

According to Merriam-Webster, the definition of secret sauce is “an element, quality, ability, or practice that makes something or someone successful or distinctive.”

Since my gift of “enthusiasm” fits the bill, remembering that enthusiasm comes from two Greek words: en + theos is God, which is literally God within us, but theos also means inspired, God-inspired.

When we put them together, it relates to God’s enthusiasm, the secret sauce, needed to create an extraordinary life that makes a difference.

That’s called a Legacy of Love!

Until next time…

Thank You For Being Beautiful You!